Hey y'all. I know Lany posted this from her account @lanygibson_5sos but you might not have seen it so here it is. Last night I decided I was sick of her sending me pictures of 5sos and 1D. I wasn't thinking about her feelings when I threatened to block her. I found out were basically 2 different people. Every time I'd start talking about something (like FNAF or the YouTubers I like) she said she'd pretend she was interested but she really wasn't. I honestly changed myself for her. I thought I wasn't good enough for her, and when we first became good friends, I started putting off important thing for her to make her happy. (I do that with all my friends but I did it more for Lany because I felt really alone last year. Everyone had all these little friend groups and I didn't.) I remember the first day of school last year, I had walked nervously into the classroom. "JESSIE!" Lany had yelled my name excitedly for the whole classroom to hear. It made me feel so happy and warm. When my mom would take me shopping for clothes, I'd pick out things I thought Lany would like. If Lany started watching someone on YouTube, I did too. If there was a game Lany liked, I spent hours watching it and learning every stupid and useless fact about I could. (I found Undertale on my own and both of us like that). I want Lany to know I'm sorry for snapping at her but she thinks I'm screwing with her feelings. I honestly feel like someone has torn out my heart. I try to appeal to everyone. I get jealous easily. I get upset easily and the smallest things make me so happy. I miss her and it hasn't even been a day.
