This update may get too personal, feel free to skip to the end.
Recently for the last two weeks I've been sick, I've gotten over most of it but one of the things I've been left with is serious mind fog. To the point I was almost in a vehicle accident and would have been at fault, thankfully nothing happened. Once I do feel better I'll be going back to a full-time job, plus having a girlfriend.
The worst part is, even when I find myself with time, I find not passion nor focus to do anything. Despite having ideas and wanting to stream, write, and be a vtuber, I find myself unable to do the work that others have. Left with conflicting thoughts, self doubt, and a sense of isolation from those I personally know. I hold no further potential nor passion for anything. Try as I might to read manga and watch anime, videos and read other stories, I've found myself bored and tired of everything.
I feel lost. Without a sense of purpose or joy. That the seasonal episodes of depression are not seasonal, but all year. I find myself becoming bitter as a person as a result of escaping my introverted tendencies. I do not like who I am as a person and I do not know the steps to take in order to be a better version of myself. Especially not one that can achieve the things I thought I wanted. Though they say the first step to fixing a problem is admitting there is one, I feel that's not enough when I don't know the source of it or if there is only one cause.
I won't be working on any more chapters now or in the near future, and I will be deleting my other accounts. This one will remain up since I know people, for whatever reason, like the RWBY stories. I don't have anything else to say other than I'm sorry and hope that you all take care.