French acc: @DragonStar18

About me <3 :
_girl
_13yo
_french/chinese
_genshin impact player
_project sekai player
_loves art
_loves writing
_simp for Childe and Teru

Anyone wants to be friend? :D




Often, I look at the mirror... My eyes are filled with disgust, disappointment... anger... Perhaps, I should give up....
"Ugh... Im so ugly!"
"dumb!"
"useless!"
I feel not enough for some people, and too much for others. Why can't I be... just... normal..?
I think, Im not doing well.... And then, I look at the people who are living worse. 
Am I acting this way to attract attention?
I wished so much times to leave this world. I felt physical pain on purpose, because it helped forget the mental pain. The one stabbing my heart endlessly, stepping on it, throwing it, squeezing it.... 
I looked for help, and instead, got hurt even more. Everyone says the same thing. They have the same advices, the same facial expression. I wonder if they really care...

But even with all this... I'm too much of a coward to actually leave this world. I think about it almost every day, I imagine the reactions of the ones I care, of the ones I wished they could see how Im dying inside...

Imagination. What a beautiful world. Writing feels like giving life to my biggest wishes, but in the end... I still can't bear the sight of myself.

This road seems endless. I walked for so long, and got used to something people call... depression..? I never officially checked my mental health, but I realized, when this one teacher sent me to the nurse's office to talk to the nurse, maybe... I wasn't too far from it....

I have no reason to continue breathing, but I can't convince myself to end everything.

That's why, I'm staying. 
I'll make my passion, a way, to make people feel connected, even if it's for a second. I might be a coward, but I fear... some people aren't, and unlike me, they will dare to do what I don't. 

I'll use words to give them hope.
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2026:

3 years of depression