If you follow me and are an active type of social media user, you have undoubtedly noticed me speed reading to my heart's content. If you are not that type of follower, or not following me at all, that's okay, I'll post this in the book Hello, as well.
Being on the spectrum where I am, I wasn't diagnosed until I was eighteen. And that diagnosis wasn't even officially given to me, but to my mother after a particularly bad panic attack. I wasn't actually told about it until my mid-twenties; by my mother.
After finding out, I understood things a bit better, about my life, the struggles I have had. Particularly my social understandings and connections; or lack thereof. In the last few years, I have seen a counsellor and he's confirmed the diagnosis, but I'm yet to take any tests other than the paper kind.
Now, I am nearing thirty, and haven't worked for about eight or so years. I graduated from college when I was in my early twenties with a couple of degrees and one other that I did not complete after a failed unit. I didn't have the skills then, to keep down a job, how to ask questions of managers to get help or explore my options. So, the last job I held was as a salesperson. I was, horrible at it. So horrible in fact, my co-workers sometimes let me put my name on their sales. I still never made commission, but that's not the point of this post really.
My point is, I am at a bit of a dip in my life. I feel stuck. I knew growing up I wanted to sing, paint, write. I do all of those things, but not at the level I wish I could. Wattpad, gave me the platform to self publish. And I am enjoying it to an extent.
However, I also want to be making money, contributing to my household. I need to be learning skills to get myself outside, interacting with people, learning how to find and keep a job down.
How to ask for what I actually want.
This post is continued here : https://www.wattpad.com/701358408-blank-space-what-i-want