Kinokoro
Hello, I'm back! It's Pauline, I'm sorry for leaving all of a sudden, but I'm back! And I don't think I'm leaving any time soon, hopefully
Lady-Judgment
Lady-Judgment
Just stopping by to say hi to everyone! Also reminder I won't ever post anymore for reasons tho I might release things later if I get the time to work on them! Thank you everyone who follows me or has just checked my account. I love you all!!!
Lady-Judgment
It's my birthday so guess what I'm 14 now!
Lady-Judgment
Me and my family are at a hotel and mom ask dad to help dye her hair yeah right.They been in the bathroom for a while I think they were making out Mom just cam out in a towel she was in the shower they had to be making out .
Lady-Judgment
Send Ghostboo_was_here a lot of love and I mean it please they need and deserved it a lot!
Lady-Judgment
Guess who's getting ready for school at 2:00 even tho I go to school in 6 more hours yass. I don't sleep to paranoid to sleep any more.
You see I never vent anymore because when I first did to a girl who was totally not fake like her face. She callled me many things also I got deja vu the other day I even cried cause I thought I was bleeding again haha It was the time I cut my hand so bad it was like a puddle of blood in the palm of my hand I was in so much pain and I started to get dixxy from panic and from seeing so much blood just from throwing a damn stick that sliced my hand .
Lady-Judgment
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Vent
Is it my fault? Why am I here god just kill me please I already have all the marks from slaming my head in to the walls and my hands are red from punching the walls just kill me. Is it my fault maddie died I mean right after she died from being so sick as soon as see was born she died and then I was borned and then mom now is pregnat from the bum and the baby she is pregnat with has such a low heart rate. The baby won't make it and it's all my fault I was so scarde of what would happen I prayed that I was losing it and I was just thinking mom was having a baby and she just was eating a lot I was scared he would take avanage of mom again and hurt her again mentaly and phyiscal too.Why would mom forgive him so quick after all he's done.Is this what love is just pain?I'm losing it again I keep hearing people saying my name and seeing shit please help.I haven't see any fighting no more atleast. I keep almost blacking out of passing out over and over. I can't even sleep. Am I even good enough.Why does it hurt so bad.They won't listen to me.Why can I help everyone besides me. I can't even breath.I don't even want to eat.I just want a hug or something but i'm so scared so all i do is lock myself in my room.Why can't they take my hints that i'm not okay that all my smiles are fake! Just make it all stop please please! I need to stop crying or mom will worry and they will look at me with even more disgusnt then before.
Sorry for venting at 10:11 please forgive me i'll start to update more.
Lady-Judgment
@allforone19 In a way yes just passing out or having black outs and mark my leg from dropping a knife and a few marks from running it to stuff also thank you also I'll try not to hurt myself I am try tho.
allforone19
@Lady-Judgment are you physically ok right now? I know you aren’t mentally so I’m going to give you a few words of advice. There is nothing wrong with you. You were put on this earth for a reason, to be human. You have a once in a life time opportunity to live your life as a human being and I know sometimes it’s not fun but it’s a learning experience. We learn love and joy and sadness and depression and regret. We are all human and it’s natural for you to think this way after losing someone. I don’t know this Maddie person but I’m sure they loved you with all their heart. Pls don’t try to hurt yourself, because if you do you wouldn’t just hurt yourself but the others who love and respect you dearly. I have also losses many but we have to keep trying we have others who need us now. It’s okay to vent at anytime I’m glad you had enough courage to vent it takes a lot. And if you ever feel like no one cares for you then I want you to know I respect you.
allforone19
@Lady-Judgment heyyyyyyyyyy
Lady-Judgment
I'll be having two updates on my horror book one is out so the second one is in progress.
Lady-Judgment
So I was going to right a new page today for my book but I threw a stick today and now my hand is bleeding and sadly it was the hand I write with.So there will be a small delay.