Rainybucket24

Hello everyone! I am "Lady Judgment" just well not a lady at all anymore! It's hilarious seeing my old work here and thank you for all the support! I'm still happily writing stories just not here anymore. The account Lady Judgment is on my laptop which won't turn on anymore.. so that's why the long silence! I write on AO3 now (let's hope the curse doesn't get me). It's wonderful being able to find this account again especially knowing I have so many unpublished works on here! This is kinda a long thing and I'm unsure if you'll be able to see this but just know I care about you all!

Hello, I'm back! It's Pauline, I'm sorry for leaving all of a sudden, but I'm back! And I don't think I'm leaving any time soon, hopefully

Just stopping by to say hi to everyone! Also reminder I won't ever post anymore for reasons tho I might release things later if I get the time to work on them! Thank you everyone who follows me or has just checked my account. I love you all!!!

It's my birthday so guess what I'm 14 now!

Me and my family are at a hotel and mom ask dad to help dye her hair yeah right.They been in the bathroom for a while I think they were making out Mom just cam out in a towel she was in the shower they had to be making out .

Send Ghostboo_was_here a lot of love and I mean it please they need and deserved it a lot!

Guess who's getting ready for school at 2:00 even tho I go to school in 6 more hours yass. I don't sleep to paranoid to sleep any more.
          
          You see I never vent anymore because when I first did to a girl who was totally not fake like her face. She callled me many things also I got deja vu the other day I even cried cause I thought I was bleeding again haha It was the time I cut my hand so bad it was like a puddle of blood in the palm of my hand I was in so much pain and I started to get dixxy from panic and from seeing so much blood just from throwing a damn stick that sliced my hand .

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          Is it my fault? Why am I here god just kill me please I already have all the marks from slaming my head in to the walls and my hands are red from punching the walls just kill me. Is it my fault maddie died I mean right after  she died from being so sick as soon as see was born she died and then I was borned and then mom now is pregnat from the bum and the baby she is pregnat with has such a low heart rate. The baby won't make it and it's all my fault I was so scarde of what would happen I prayed that I was losing it and I was just thinking mom was having a baby and she just was eating a lot I was scared he would take avanage of mom again and hurt her again mentaly and phyiscal too.Why would mom forgive him so quick after all he's done.Is this what love is just pain?I'm losing it again I keep hearing people saying my name and seeing shit please help.I haven't see any fighting no more atleast. I keep almost blacking out of passing out over and over. I can't even sleep. Am I even good enough.Why does it hurt so bad.They won't listen to me.Why can I help everyone besides me. I can't even breath.I don't even want to eat.I just want a hug or something but i'm so scared so all i do is lock myself in my room.Why can't they take my hints that i'm not okay that all my smiles are fake! Just make it all stop please please! I need to stop crying or mom will worry and they will look at me with even more disgusnt then before.
          
          Sorry for venting at 10:11 please forgive me i'll start to update more.

@Lady-Judgment heyyyyyyyyyy

I'll be having two updates on my horror book one is out so the second one is in progress.