I don't know if I can keep this cycle going.
Going to school, drowning in homework not understanding any of it, helping with my cycling club (that I love with all my heart) and when I get free time to read or what ever I feel like I'm wasting it.
Or when I not at school and feel like I don't have a reason to wake up and just rot in my own self doubt and anxieties LIKE I AM NOW AT 4:30 in the morning. I just don't know if I can keep this cycle going. Do i want to? No. but if I don't what would I do?