miles

perfect perfect perfect 

okay. starting fresh

i have lost all motivation to study.
          i did well in the pres and my mom said i should stop studying again for a few weeks because i did that well in the pres with 6 weeks of doing a little bit of study.
          and i think that's a nice idea.
          but i don't even want to do homework this weekend.

i feel completely uncomfortable with what you asked me today and why you asked it, and then on top of that finding out that I was being excluded from part of the conversation was just the cherry on top.
          
          I'm not answering any more of your questions on the subject.

i just need to get this off of my chest.
          i think you're a bad friend sometimes and there are a lot of things you have done that bother me, and i find you hypocritical but i always try and give you the benefit of the doubt and i try and see your hypocrisy as growth.
          but this is consistent.
          i do not think you are consistently a good friend.

hottest day of my LIFE.

"this is one of my dad's stories....so it's not really funny...."
          -holly, laughing her fucking ass off

what happens happens, and i will be okay.

it has to get better than this.
          it has to get easier.
          
          i have to survive this.
          

i love this feeling.
          i don't know what it's called.
          right now i feel it because i watched a video about st brigid.
          another time i got it because it told a friend i would change the world.
          it's just this feeling of something huge, something great.
          like i am destined for good things.
          
          i will change the world.