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Laela4054
Laela4054
Huhh_what
Heyy baby!!
Yk I want to talk with you, tell you my reasons, explain my situation..... but i don't know why my mind is going all blank when I come to your page to talk.
I dont know what is this phase or situation called but I dont want you to feel like I disappeared intentionally or ignoring you.
I dont even feel like to talk with anyone...
You know sweetheart on the new year eve..... I became the opposite person of what I actually thought to be.
It was an irony how on the first day of new year, my whole being was feeling like its the end of everything of me...... weird right? I know.
I didn't wished anyone like i planned to.
Your wish was the first one i received (apart from my family though) amd second from another close frd.... thats it..
But your wish was like a flame to my darkness....a small, unexpected yet precious flame.
Reading that one sentence brought me in happy tears.... it was like I got a hope to stop that ending.
I am really grateful to that msg...... to every msg of yours.
Thank you for existing....... thank you for coming in my life...
On this app you are that person I deeply care for.....
I love and respect you alot darling....please know this ❤️❤️
Laela4054
@Huhh_what there's so many butterflies in my heart ❤️ after reading these words. AND DID YOU JUST ADREES ME PETAL OMG deja vo hit my pure heartuuuu(^q^)(⌒0⌒) . You can let it out whenever you need to, don't think about it because sometimes you just need to leave it, or it's will drown you in your negative thoughts.
Huhh_what
@Laela4054 thank you for understanding petal ♥️ I wanted to just tell my feelings, be honest with you..... wanted to let you know how i was feeling and what your words mean to me.✨️✨️ Thank you ♥️ I felt refreshed and relaxed after writing to you. My beautiful soft baby *hugs you tightly* Miss you alot daisy *squeeze you soft cheeks*
Huhh_what
Happy New Year to my beautiful, soft hearted and strong will power frd. ❣️
Love you baby ❣️❣️❣️
Huhh_what
Oh btw tell me you are warm enough? And not freezing.... cause here my feet are on hell bent to stay cold(ﾟーﾟ*)
Huhh_what
Then you should start taking a walk outside of your house, cause really think is terrible when you have no one to relay on.... and honestly the continuously stress could be the reason of the imbalance cycle.... but you said you faced this problem since teenage.... makes sure to talk to your doc..... but heyy dont you share your thoughts with your mother....or you can't?
And shoul i suggest you something.... bring a small or any plant you love to your home.... and nurishe it.... make it your frd.... share your day with it....good bad... ask about their days..... I know they can't reply verbally but they will help you to stay out of York mind
Laela4054
@Huhh_what when you don't have someone to rely on, it's become harder . We don't have a library here, too I don't have anything to keep myself busy from my inner thoughts .
Laela4054
@Huhh_what I think my period gets late because I maby get a breakdown last month, moreover I'm the only girl in this house after my big sister got married
Huhh_what
And i love your warmth
Laela4054
@Huhh_what she is fine allhammdullah She is a very strong woman, not like me , I hope she stays strong.
Huhh_what
Heyyy darling.....
Im here....
*hugs you tightly and caressing your back*
Let it out baby....
I will not leave you alone....
Huhh_what
This year is going to end with in 2 days.
It was a hard year, but also full of bravery too.
Everyone faced their own struggles, some's were hard.... and some's were hard to imagine.
But still everyone tried their best in their own way to survive these hardships.
And somehow I realised surviving is not the meaning of life.....
But it also mean to enjoy the present, to make something beautiful out of that moment. And treasure it till the end. Cause present is what we got.
So in the hope of creating another beautiful moment with you, im praying to God to grace me with your beautiful and strong self before this year end and we celebrate our new year with peace.
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Sorry baby....
Please dont mind these stupid words and a cringed attempt to make create some nice msg.
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Love you alot darling.♥️♥️
Hope you are fine ✨️✨️
Huhh_what
@Laela4054 lets pray together for peaceful days, cause you guys deserve happiness ✨️✨️✨️✨️
Huhh_what
I miss you.
Huhh_what
Yo.... what's up darling...d=(^o^)=b
How you doing?(*^O^*)
Guess who is staying up so late like an owl????
Yep, its me ＼(^_^)／
Nevermind......
Just wanna tell you.... I love you alot my chocopie (*^^*)
You know......I feel like.... im not going anywhere..... nowhere at this rate.... just stuck up in a loop where I repeat things which do nothing good to me..... its perhaps im not putting any efforts to break this cycle....
This became burdensome today.....