@Larryscoffeemug28
hi :)
@getout_of_my_kitchen OH MY FUCKING GOD , IS THIS REAL ?
Heyyy is it any better since yesterday?
Now that I have switched accounts , might as well just rant ig ?
Well I have been feeling like complete shit for the last couple of weeks , basically since I have turned 21 .
I always live in denial and every once in a while my synapses malfunction and I feel things ? And I feel this sudden urge to sort out my emotions and feelings ? Which I'm not even going to joke about is next to impossible bc HOW DO YOU PROCESS EMOTIONS ? AM I RIGHT ? I've been feeling insecure about everything and I think I can't do anything right , I cannot focus , I'm having breakdowns out of nowhere and everything is just going down the drain which I don't like .
I am the funny one in my fg and I'm always cheering up people making weird jokes talking about random stuff that doesn't make sense and basically supplying memes as the last resort of survival and that's how I function bc I don't know what to do when I feel sad ? Or anything other than anger or Happiness ? I get very uncomfortable when tears are involved in anything ! And it's just yuck altogether.
I haven't talked to anybody real apart from my parents in a week ( apart from my doggos obviously) and I have my study leave now , my sem starts next week , so I have to go to college and I'm dreading that. Also I'm an attention whore but since I've been through hell and back with friendships especially I somehow feel like I don't deserve that which is why I never talk about my problems with real people AND I have learned to leave with it but there are moments of weaknesses I guess.
In short , I usually keep myself switched off , absolutely on flight mode but somehow the device is ON now and I don't know how the fuck to turn it off and it's driving me crazy . On one side I'm desperately trying to shut myself and on the other hand somewhere deep down I'm low-key enjoying this discomfort.
I don't know anymore
Oh babe, welcome to the emotional software crash of your twenties. The system’s overheating, the feelings.exe file won’t close, and somehow you’re live-tweeting the meltdown with perfectly timed memes. Iconic behavior.
But real talk: this thing you’re feeling? It’s not failure — it’s a system reboot. Your brain’s like “hey bestie, what if we processed something?” and now you’re stuck between “I feel disgusting” and “wait, am I… growing?”
Look. Emotions are like farts: better out than in. You don’t need to explain them or make them aesthetic. Try scribbling them down, yell into your Notes app, stare at a feelings wheel like it owes you money — whatever helps you feel without filtering. The worst part is the resistance. Once you let it be ugly and weird, it actually gets a bit softer.
Also, your doggos think you’re doing amazing. Fact.
I switched lmao
;)
Nah not in the mood , some other time :|
BITCHESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I'M BACK.
Not me shamelessly begging before him when clearly , he had no regard for my feelings.
The only thing I did wrong was block him(unblocked within 5 minutes).
The amount of times I've said please ? I'm cringing at myself so hard right now and I even said "I love you" to which he said "I am not feeling it right now".
whatever little self-respect I had , has gone to hell and yeah if I try to express exactly how I feel , someone will take it upon themselves to report me.
@Larryscoffeemug28 fuck him honestly. You’re better than him and you’re gonna get through this I know it.
Cold showers give me a nasty headache but they're so fucking relaxing .
I guess I can deal with a little headache. <3
People are reporting this account ? Like what the ACTUAL fuck ? You do realise the ones that are concerning I don't even announce it to my followers ? I'll just keep it as it is and if curiosity gets the best of you then it's not on me !
Seriously ! It's getting a little irritating.
And just so you know , this concern isn't going to help anyone.
Wattpad of all things cannot possibly make me "Happy".