Its already two weeks without him. He isn't here anymore.
But it isn't getting any easy either as the time passes...
sometimes it is hard to even breath...
sometimes this loneliness is unbearable...
sometimes it is hard to cry silently..
Wherever i go his absence is haunting me...
Every corner of the room, every stuffed toy in my bed, the couch pillows feels like mocking me..
Missing him was more difficult than i thought it would be...
What is more terrifying is that i couldn't able to remember his smell, his sounds, his presence.
It is difficult to lose someone we loved, but what is more difficult is to learn to live without them. No one would prepare you for this kind of pain.
I hate this feelings.
hate this hollowness inside me.
this feeling of helplessness...
hate this feeling of not to be able to control the situation.
I miss you cooper... really do.. love you <3 it is getting hard to live without you... a part of me died with you... i know it is not possible to come, but i wish i can do something, anything to made you come to me again.