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Why am I losing so many followers TT

Hiiiii! hru?

New words to describe me: Attachment anxiety… TT

i just love ur themeee

pov: my dictionary. 
          
          i love the letter p
          
          pathetic.
          paranoid.
          pressure.
          pessimist.
          possessive.
          pathological. 
          panic-attack.
          people-pleaser.
          passive-aggressive.
          persecutory delusion.
          
          
          i love those words above
          because they are…
          
          painfully beautiful.
          poisonous psychic potion – sounds dreamy
          
          
          i don't care how negative these words are
          
          because everything, 
          just feel like another label of me
          
          so many times i wonder
          how the heck everything is so fcked up?
          yeah i’m the problem, it's me.
          
          i'm still procrastinating everything 
          
          don't even know what i want
          loving emotions but feeling numb
          can't tell what i'm feeling right now
          everything i do turns into hatred and regret
          
          
          it sounds insane, but i feel like
          
          every glistening teardrop feels stunning,
          more aesthetical than a smile
          
          the more torturing they thought it could be,
          the more beauty I found in that word
          
          
          should i 
          call it poetic…
          or a pity?
          
          
          
          
          pause.
          
          
          life can't just go on in grayscale
          
          
          but where are the other shades?
          
          
          
          
          my dear letter p
          tell me
          
          pride
          pretty.
          peace.
          precious.
          patience.
          powerful.
          pleasant.
          perfection.
          passionate.
          progressive.
          
          … where are they?
          
          
          i thought, 
          p was supposed to be positive
          
          
          

Hi

The teasing whispers our names
          I roll my eyes— stupid games
          Push the ship far, far away
          Won’t bother me anyway
          
          Knowing nothing about love
          Just the jokes, the words above
          A laughter, simple “hello”
          What’s’s that feeling? I don’t know…

What if my kindness became an egoism disguised in altruistic?

How's everyonee

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