Avalon Strider

Lol I has to post this in little groups so if you want the beginning scroll down and ig read up  sorry guys enjoy the tea 

Anyways I had a little friends and benefits partner to help my sorrows it was fun sex dates friendship eventually we got together and honestly I regret it and I don't I regret not taking that time off but I don't regret finally getting some attention and finally feeling like someone cares about me cause I didn't get that the last month of my old relationship. That neglect was so bad when I tried to work on my baddy journey it was mostly me crying saying he don't care about me at. Anyways I'm gonna be in a fashion show that's cool I'm really looking forward to it. I'm probably not gonna stay in my current relationship but so longer because it's not good for My health and I don't wanna take advantage of my current partners kindness. I just think my ex really messed things up for me and he doesn't understand how and doesn't want to know how so at this point I probably need some time to myself. Also another good news I'll be working again so money in my pocket means more going out and having fun and I could say I'm proud of myself for that one and plus I was broken up through text I said call me and he still texted me LIKE WTF SUCH A DICK MOVE RIGHTTTTT.  Anyways thanks for coming to my life update literally I don't need to write my life is like a straight story. 

But it's like I've always been chasing him his grades were better than mines so I said let me do better so I won't embarrass him by being a dumbass gf. I wanted to learn how to travel more so I won't be a burden to him. He's basically an adult soon he don't live with his parents he had a job he wanted to get a drivers license I said i will too so I won't be a useless passenger princess I said I want to change how I dress so I look nice next to him I said let me save money so he don't have to pay for the whole trip. But yeah apparently he's chasing and I'm not. It's crazy he says that but when I get on his level he goes up 3 more levels. . 

There were times I would go without contact funny cause sometimes I'd reach out and get nothing back. There were times I'd get a response and the convo seem so dry so one-sided like they didn't even want to talk to me or I felt likes I was forcing them to chat with me. Ummm yeah so I said I'll be back in like a week or 2 Idk and I did come back to chat with my friends but not him why you may ask because I wanted to see of he cared of me leaving meant anything if he'd miss me. So I was like let him text me first. Never did for ig another week when I confronted him that's where we ended. It's sad cause he made it seem like everything was all my fault that we ended and I feel like we both did things on our parts of even apologized and he never did the jerk I understand it wasn't right to "test" someone but again it's not right to neglect someone. And they have the nerve to say they not chasing me no more. 

Omg I haven't been on wattpad in literal years. Hi y'all honestly idk what to say. A lot has happened to me a lot of bad and a little good.  idk if I'll continue writing anymore I'mma keep this profile up incase one day I get the urge but i don't think I'm continuing my other stories if I do I'll probably remake them but I won't promise it. 
          
          Anyways want a update about my life cause I always kinda considered this my diary to random strangers lmao. 
          
          Let's see let's see... 
          Me and my ex broke up makes sense cause he my ex lol. That was messy ig details. I went on a social break from everyone also him. The reason I did was because I felt neglected. 

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Hey you guys its been a while but with school and all I've been busy and haven't been able to write at all. But I'm back reading some books and I thought they can be better. Especially my mythical Greek gods book. I've been doing some more research on Greek gods because of my love for it and now it has grown with all the knowledge I've gained. So I'm going to rewrite this book better maybe even than I can continue it more.  Again my grammar won't be that great but who needs grammar lmao  My lazy butt can't edit for grammar any way. as long as the point is conveyed it's all good. Well have a good day Okumura babies. And again remember  WE DONT NEED GRAMMARRRRRRRRR. 

sorry I was gonna redirect all my publish books to my greatest abilities but I got caught up with school so I'll do it another time imma just publish them the way they are.

I made a new book cause I wanted to try werewolf vampire and witch genre. My inspiration was the originals and vampire diaries etc. 
          
          Please tell me what yall think

Hey has anyone been hooked onto someone they can't have? share your stories tips anything is helpful. 
          
          theres this person i like lol. And I confessed to them maybe like 2 times or whatever lol. I've liked them for such a long time. they know so much about me and I barely know about them. but it just hurts when they see you just as a friend. And after a whole bunch of rejections from others. them rejecting me is like not enough to break me. like I still have hope and think one day they'll say I like you. but today after watching so many lgbt romance movies and see them ending so happily. I just remembered im never gonna have that. And it makes me hurt so much that I cry. like what is it. is it me? should I change? I'm tired of being alone. I think im just gonna give up. I might not talk to her for a while. And I want to tell her that I we won't talk for a while but I dont wanna sound harsh. we aren't that close and I know it NO i feel it. So if we dont chat for a while I doubt she'll even care. maybe than il finally get over her at last.