Bro omggggg I haven’t logged into this account in over 2 years that’s actually so crazy
But the fact that I created this account 7 years ago is mind boggling. This fandom used to bring me so much joy, it was the one thing that I could look forward to every day. This fandom was such a big part in me growing up and it’ll forever have a special place in my heart even tho I no longer associate w it.
So much has changed since I last used this account. I was so much happier and didn’t have the trauma of my first love yet.
im venting since this acc is basically dead
To my dearly beloved. I love and miss you so so much every single day. Not a day goes by where im not thinking of you. I know you have someone else in your heart now and I know we got into a crazy fight the night you left me for good. I fight myself every day to not text your number or call you. It really does get better day by day, im not crying at the thought of you anymore. Even tho what we had was toxic and so unhealthy, I can’t shake the thought that maybe one day you could’ve bettered yourself for me. I hope you know our daughter thinks of you every night as well. I honestly hope you still love her…its true you’d never be able to have her with anybody else, it just wouldn’t be the same :(
I know I deserved better. If I could choose then I’d choose to get over you and move on, but im in love with you still. I still have so much love left for you in my heart. I feel so crazy without you, it’s like I don’t even wanna exist now that you’re gone. I’m only 16 years old, I’ll be 17 in half a year. But this heartbreak feels like the end of my life ughhhhh
I may or may not try texting you tonight…I don’t know yet..
But I love you, j.
- from p and your daughter a.
