I don’t what to do. Am I excited? Am I upset? Am I crushed? What do I do? He just confessed it all to me.
Well You knew that he liked you, You had that feeling. But you doubted it. You cried over they guy and now he tells you he has a crush on you. What would you do? Me I acted when he told me. Just tried to switch the subject. We split up to go class and I looked to my right and another guy was there. I noticed when he walked into the gym he was looking at me. I saw him when I left and he was watching me sort of. Both look at me with possessiveness but they’re different. The second one with comfort the first starts something inside of me. I could love both but guilt drops deep inside of my heart and I’m wanting to have it raised. I prayed to get this answer. To know I’m loved by someone in this world. But what am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to just go with the first one i had always loved. Then it would be another who I’ve never seen for years. It was pre school and that was my first crush I remember him, he was considered a bad kid but I was his friend, and I knew better.
But he’s gone, so was my second grade crush. I absolutely hate the crush that went on and off for a while but he seems to like me. Why can't this world just have a place where you can stop emotions when you want them to. Then you wouldn't need to worry about others.
But now the one, who never leaves, who hangs above my memories. He’s there, he could be the one, but he’s everything everyone wants. Maybe I just need to be better than myself. But I’m still just the fat one in the corner. Just leave, both of you. I need space to breathe. The best friends I could breathe when he's not around, but this one I’d suffocate without him it seems. Heck, someone needs to give me CPR. Someone needs to fix me. Someone needs to save the monster. This treacherous thing that is me.