Lea Chan

I want to write fanfics so bad but i could just never find the motivation T_T  
          with all the amazing writers on wattpad whose books and fanfics I've read, it feels like i could never write anything as well as that! or even compare at all :<
          Does anyone have any ideas to help me?  I would really appreciate it! <3 (if anyone reads these posts, that is lol) ><;;

uhhh this is kind of random but I just gotta get this out-
          I'm a light-skinned black person; my parents are from Haiti. Their skin is pretty light, just not like mine.  (And in case you didn't know, the vast majority of people in Haiti are black)
          My younger sister has darker skin and when she tells someone she's black, people will automatically believe her, and as for me when I tell someone the same they just don't believe me and assume I'm white and then act racist right in front of me with a mindset like, "oh, shes white so it's not like she'll get offended or anything".   Because of my skin, I'm considered more "privileged" than my sister, for example.  Which I find so unfair.  
          Also, you know how sometimes in the beginning of a new school year they ask you to introduce yourself, or give info about you or where you're from and all that?  Twice when I mentioned how my parents are from Haiti they just don't believe me and say I'm "not black enough" or "My skin isn't dark enough" to be Haitian.  I know I have light-colored skin, but it doesn't mean that I'm white!    And of course, it really hurts my feelings when people say things like that to me. 
          -I believe people shouldn't go assuming what race you are just by looking at your face. 
          Sorry for the ping/notification, btw;  I just wanna feel like I'm being heard, lol
          I hope you all have a wonderful day!  
          Love you!!!

A few weeks ago i lost my DS and its driving me crazy @.@
          I know it sounds weird but i cherish that nintendo with all my heart.  I have so many memories that were made on it!  It's like i left it next to my bed, and then i didnt really pick it up after a few weeks;  when i come back from school wanting to play on it and expecting it to be there, i cant find it.. I have a feeling that i probably moved it somewhere and i just don't remember.  That DS is a great source of my happiness.  I've always been playing on it since i was a really young kid in 1st grade (lol i still have picures of me at the time that were taken by the ds). Sometimes i almost feel like crying because i cant find it. I just cant stop thinking about it; where i might have left it, or if something happened to it.. Ive checked everwhere i could think of so far! I really hope i find it!
          
          Im so sorry for wasting your time as your reading this- yet i must thank you at the same time!
          I know it sounds stupid that im really sad over losing a tiny game console. I just really cant help it.. 
          Once again though, i really gotta thank you for reading this. It makes me feel like people care, (even though they dont).
          
          
          God bless you all, my friends!
          I love you.