I am what you might call an anti optimist. so I think of the worst possible things and think about death and how tomorrow I could die. so I have decided to change myself completely. I want to be successful. Not some immature crap. I want to be somebody not a nobody. I feel like if I start fresh I can lead myself to be a somebody. I love to write and read but I need help. I want people to recommend books to me and give me I read for books.