LeafeonPower

Well, I'm back from a trip across the world: to Singapore first, and then to Medan, Indonesia.

Yow 

Well hello again. I'm still around.
          
          Updates from my side, is that I'm pretty much getting up and going to work, working for 9 hours or so, come back home, work on the property, then be lazy for two hours before resetting the schedule.
          I'm growing into the (unofficial) role as my mother's property caretaker through mowing the lawn, pruning trees, building a greenhouse, making minor repairs and fixes throughout and such, and my small church body wants me, the current sole young guy taking interest, to essentially take part in every facet of the labors. It's a tough spot, because there's many older folks, and almost no young folks, so I'm the one guy still here, still able-bodied, so they want me to help them with everything.
          That, and I'm still getting tools to eventually start my own construction business, but that's some time down, because I'm focused on the formerly mentioned things.
          God also seemed to direct me to not pursue dating that one girl. which leaves me in a displeasing spot: much and ever-increasing work and responsibilities, physical limitations and permanent injuries due to overextension, packed schedules, no hobbies (I haven't written in months), no proper friends, and now denial of dating someone.
          I don't know what God is trying to teach me through this, but I've been tired for so long, and the tiredness seems to only weigh more heavily with each passing day.
          I still don't plan on getting back to writing. I've got no passion for it, and hobbies get in the way of my work now. I guess I don't have much reason to even still be here if I'm not writing or reading anything. Huh.

One of my oldest followers 

I'm at a bit of a crossroads, and not sure which way to go from here.
          I won't divulge much, but let's just say I have the choice between persevering and pursuing something I've been seeking for some time, or giving it up as a humble sacrifice to God.
          I'm unsure which is His will, because on the one hand, He could be driving me to fight with all I have for this thing. However, He could be subtly telling me to give it up for Him.
          I'm looking for a sign on which way to go because it's unclear. But how my future goes revolves around which decision I make, so I'm not willing to make the wrong one.
          I need a clear sign directly from Him.

Alright, well I got my account suspended for 2 days for some reason, I turned halfway to 50, and I'm developing a greenhouse for my mom, and working on starting my own construction business.
          I'm not writing as of now. I do want to, but discipline is required first, and I've been doing what I can to keep up with my life outside of the internet, to the point where I just willfully neglect what's online.
          Honestly, at 25, I'm now asking myself what I'm doing with my life, and why I haven't tried to do something more. I'm halfway through my 20s with nothing to show for it. And the older I get, the more I realize that what I see online is not what reality is.
          I guess that begs the question as to why I'm announcing this at all. Truthfully, I don't know. Maybe I care about you all. Who knows?
          But I'm not writing for now. I will someday.

It's interesting how when people hurt most they only want to pull away from others.

Wow, it's been 9 days since I spoke on here. Sorry, I've been working day and night.
          Though, I suppose if there was an absence of announcements from me, it'd go unnoticed, or reduced to a single thought of, 'Hey, I haven't seen LeafeonPower say anything in a while'.
          My announcements may become fewer. Work is only expected to increase these next two months.

So I've been hearing things lately, but I wasn't sure concerning them.
          Gen Z ladies and lads: have you had a hunger to dive deeper into traditions, more ancient belief systems, or foundational religious or political institutions (of all kinds) as of late? Because I've heard that Gen Z is beginning to grow weary of the sensationalist, fast but empty modern lifestyle that is focused only on pleasure, and is more orienting itself toward much more grounded, old-style traditions and beliefs that shaped many peoples before us.
          I want to know if anyone who sees this has been craving the same thing.

Two things:
          The song I Took a Pill in Ibiza (I wouldn't recommend watching the music video if you've never seen it), when you listen to the lyrics, is a horrifically depressing song. It makes me despise the idea of ever becoming famous, going to clubs, etc. The party lifestyle is such an empty lifestyle.
          A bit of a Christian moment, but my pastor is preaching through Matthew 24, and he has people do a reading between worship songs in preparation for his message, and this week I'm doing the reading (which I've done before), but this time it's from Revelation 6:12-17. Which is a very significant and powerful passage.