Leigh

Bonk

I hate it here.. I accidentally published and had to unpublish

Do you have any suggestions for my writing?

Don't let people's words tear you down. You are worth more than hating yourself. You may have flaws, but self-improvement exists. You may think that nobody likes  you, but somebody cares. Love yourself, accept yourself. I may be in a negative headspace, but you don't have to as well.

I think I might have depression. I'm also doubting my judgement constantly. But I'm always doubting myself constantly, with the mindset of, "If you're not good at this for shit, you'll never be." I hate myself and hit myself for not being able to do anything right. I don't get why people like me. I'm not funny, I'm not talented, I'm an asshole, I'm obnoxious, I'm everything that nobody deserves. When I talk to my friends about it, I feel like I'm a burden and am lying to them and myself. I deserve nothing, nothing deserves me.

I'm strongly considering giving up on writing.

I am constantly questioning my sexuality. I feel great about my confuzzlement.

Day 1 of not writing:
          I constantly write and stress over keeping my "upload every other day" schedule. Because of that, my brain keeps saying, "If you're not working, why even keep writing the book?" But I'm done with being stressed over a stupid book! I'm so fücking done with a silly voice, pushing me to my limits. I want to cry, but I can't. I'm drinking   Chamomile  tea, in hopes that I will calm down. If I do write today, tomorrow, or the next day, I will not publish anything. I'll just publish whenever it's done.

I need to slow down... 
          I realize nowadays my chapters have a lacking of sense, so I need to improve on that. What we've learned today: my writing is shit and I need to work harder/be less hard on myself

I looked at my reads the other day, and it it used to say "69" and I thought 'Is this a sign I should write smut?' And I haven't written it before. Also, I asked my friend about it, and she was like, "Me too, and I have to work on my requests." And my other mate said "I don't have to worry about that because I don't write fanfiction because I have no creativity." 
          I fucking love my Little meow-meow and potato.