LeisenWilliams

I can't believe it's been a year...  I still miss him so much...

@LeisenWilliams 
          
          Paige.....

I was having a hard time during the time of his birthday...  And I know I said something to him for his birthday...  But I'll do it here too...  Happy 20th birthday Sonny Bear...  I miss u like hell but I have to get over that...  I still wish I could say goodbye one more time...  That u would answer when I talk to u now...  No offense but ur boring when ur dead...  Even if u came back for a couple hours it'd put my heart at ease..  I never thought ud actually leave...  We would have had amazing birthday sex haha...  But I love u and that will never change...  The one thing I loved about u is ur heart...  It was so big and filled with love and compassion...  U had a strong heart no fear...  U were a fighter and u were brave...  U loved those who u cared about...  And most of all I loved how u gave me ur heart and trusted me with it and I did the same in return...  I love u sonny may u rest in peace...

@bookgeek123 we are very sorry for your loss. And the best of luck to you too. 

I know how u guys feel I lost my uncle who was very close to me on September 28,2012. The best of luck in life 

Please take the time to read Leisen's journal. I found it today while I was going through his stuff. He was a beautiful reader and I feel you all deserve to see what he was thinking in the very short time that you got to know him. He was an amazing man and this journal brought tears to my eyes. I do not mean to bring up any sadness and hurt by posting this. It is not my intention. Please take the time to read it. It would mean a lot to me and his mom. Rest in Peace, Leisen Williams (September 8th, 2012) 
          -Paige

Well Sonny...  Honestly I go to school and think "I can't wait to talk to Sonny."  then I stop in the middle of the hall and make a bee line to the bathroom to bawl my eyes out...  It's hard to think that the guy you fell so madly in love with is gone and out of your life...  He's not there to hold you anymore, he can't make you feel all giddy inside anymore, he's not there to comfort you or spend time with your kids or celebrate another anniversary...  It's hard getting over someone so important and it's probably hard enough to just be dumped by someone so important much less lose them to a disease...  It was hard seeing you so weak and scared Sonny...  I hated that you were suffering just because you didnt want to leave me :(  You have no idea how hard it was to tell Mom to tell the Docs to let you go :'(  I guess I had this small hope in the back of my mind that u'd come back...  Hell if you came back as a ghost I wouldn't care cuz im insane anyway :/ but I miss you so much and I love you more than anyone or anything or else id have never married you or had any of your babies...   Connor, Christian, and Cody miss their daddy and I miss my husband...  I miss my Sonny Bear...  You told me to keep living so i will you told me to be happy so im trying...  I look at the stars everynight and I think about you and im eatting skittlez right now you crazy skittle boy haha I wore purple yesterday for no reason but i guess subconsiously i did it on purpose...  I know you fought for me and our sons and I'm proud of you...  I just wish we had more time together :(  I have more to say but sadly I'm running out of room so i'll let you know more later sonny bear :)  
          
          Love,
          Your Baby Girl (i remember the first time you called me that... :) I was so happy and we werent even dating yet xD), Your wife, the girl who loves you so fucking much its insane, Lexi Williams 

Today is the day of Leisens funeral. But it isn't a normal funeral. Hayley and I have decided that since not all of you can come to Paris tomorrow to be part of his funeral, we ask that you do a balloon launch. Write three words that describe him or what you loved about him on the balloon and after you send your wishes to him let go of the balloon so it flys up to heaven so he can see it. Afterwards please leave a message on his board telling him why you loved him or what you loved about him. This is a much better way to have his funeral ad everyone can be apart of it. Thanks. -Hayley and Paige

RIP<3 Though I did not know you, I know that Cancer is a very tough thing to learn you have. My dad passed away from Lung Cancer about 5 years ago. <3 RIP see you later <3

happy birthday 
          i may not have known him but he seems so nice 
          R.I.P