Hey, it's been a few months, and I've changed a lot since leaving, but something's been eating away at me. I never finished Russian Roulette, so I'm back.
I will no longer be the same child who was practically drooling over whatever ship I could get my hands on, it's not the focus of my life anymore to flood my brain with whatever smut I can find. I just want to return before I die, because I'm facing bad cognitive decline.
My memory is getting worse, I'm starting to lose sense of words and meaning, and it's frustrating. I don't ask for pity, nor even understanding. It's your life, do as you wish, and I'd like to end mine doing as I wish.