Leo8207

I’m in love with my ex.
          
          Not my first ex, not the one who was toxic, manipulative, cheated on me, insulted me daily to my face, and then called me sensitive when I took it personally, consistently told me I was annoying made a whole group chat with my friends telling them how annoying I was and how they wished I was dead, then tried to convince me it was a joke and for my own safety. 
          
          My first healthy relationship, the second one. I fell in love with them, which is different than loving them. Falling in love with someone means you love all the perfections and imperfections, you’re working through everything together, you don’t always see eye to eye and you do argue , but you always find a ground.
          
          They have a place in my heart that no one will ever get, in fact they have my heart no one‘s ever going to have 

I often lay on my bed and imagine if I died how peaceful it would be 

I have so many people in my life and yet the only person in my life that actually supports me, has hope and faith in me that I’m going somewhere and going to live a life worth being proud of is my non-biological aunt. The same woman I work with. I’m glad that she believes in me I’m glad that she supports me every step of the way and always hasbut in the same sense having parents that believe you’re not going anywhere in life, we’re going to do anything great hurts in such a undescribable way I don’t know, this is going into the void, but I’m actually so thankful to have her.

Still absurdly in love 

Fell in love 

When I fall
          
          I falll
          
          
          
          

https://youtube.com/@Shadow_pilot

Overthinkers think about everything else but themselves 

I just came in my sleep

They are waiting for somebody else not you