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Why, why does this keep happening. I was fine earlier, on call with a friend and writing. Not that I was happy and living my best life, but I was fine. Now... Now I'm back were I was, ready to end it all. Bad things keep happening, every day is another reason to end it, and not one to live. The only reason I am here is because of that spiritual sign, but I will ask as to why I am here again, because that sign, the sign that something better will come soon, has yet to happen. Everything has just got worse. I don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I'm so god damn lost. I'm just fucking exhausted, no matter how many naps I take, how much I sleep my life away, I'm still tired. I guess that because naps don't help when your soul is tired.
Anyways, sorry for always burdening you guys with this again. I just don't know what else to do. I don't want to tell people close to me, because that has led to more problems in the past. I can't tell my therapist, and even if I could, my dad isn't letting me go anymore. Everything is just shit. Anyways, sorry again.