Alex

Hey,
          
          So it's been a while and even though I'm still not the greatest...I want to write again. I want to Express myself, whether it's stories, poems, or whatever. I just...have so much to say and I'm not good at talk to others, so here's this.
          
          I'll call it, "Nightmare"
          
          Thanks

Just some inspiration,
          
          Someone once told me when I was at my weakest and had so many against me, words shouted at me, and people manipulating me, that I was strong. I was strong because even though I wanted to end it all and I cried so much, I was strong. I had the strength to keep going because I knew better things and people were coming my way. I lost people, I lost myself. 
          
          But those words helped me, they reminded me I had a life to live and nothing and no one will determine my happiness anymore. I am so much stronger than I was six months ago. I'm a much better, more carefree person than I used to be. I've grown and expressed myself.
          
          All I have to say to those who are struggling, even if you don't think you're strong, looking the mirror, into your own eyes and remember you got yourself this far. Ignore those hatred words and evil people. Because everyone has a side they show to the public and a side they keep to themselves. Remember you are worth it and no one is worth your tears. 
          
          Stay strong my followers, just keep fighting the hard fight, 
          
          -Alex believes in you

I'm sorry. 
          
          I feel awful after my good weekend and day because I'm utterly exhausted and stressed. 
          
          I'm just making excuses, I know. So I don't know when I'll write more of Eighteen because I'm settling into my new ways. I've also been busy with a lot of my friends and it just feels good to be so outgoing lately. 
          
          I'm really distracted because of this girl and its probably gonna lead me into heartbreak again, but lately I'm reckless. So fuck it, I do what I want. 
          
          -Alex

Heyo, 
          
          Its nearly seven in the morning and I stayed up all night. 
          
          I finished Back to You though! All twenty chapters are finished, written, and posted. The last chapter may get edited a bit because I'm super tired so I'm not sure it makes sense. 
          
          Eighteen will start soon, I need to recharge first. I'm still working on my plan for that, especially something that I'll like. 
          
          I'm going to bed now, 
          
          -Alex

Let's see if I can write this to make sense, 
          
          Back to You will hopefully be finished by Wednesday of next week and then I'll start Eighteen. 
          
          I was going to post chapter sixteen tonight, but I'm totally spaced out and I can hardly make sentences. I'm extremely fatigued lately and have spent most of my school days sleeping, on top of taking three to four hours naps once I get home. Only to go back to sleep around midnight. 
          
          I'll try tomorrow, I'm sorry. 
          
          -Alex

General Announcement while I'm still coherent...
          
          Back to You is coming to a close, probably five more chapters making it a total of twenty. The latest chapter is a bit sad, but I made it that why for a reason. I have plans for the end of the book, I'm not spoiling it. 
          
          Now that I'm caught up in English, I can spend more time writing. That is when I'm not procrastinating heavily. 
          
          Now I am doing possibly another Louis or Harry story. Its up to you all. I'm in the middle of a story for Suga as well, so expect that. 
          
          That is all, 
          
          -Alex is very tired

Thanks for adding Serendipity to your reading list! I hope you enjoy it :)

Heyo, I'm still getting sick but I still have to go to school Monday. So Back to You is gonna be slow but I am working on it. If anyone has any ideas or wants me to post the latest chapter tonight, I will. 
          
          Now to what I wanted to talk about. I am BTS trash, those boys have stolen my heart and consumed my mind. Suga/Yoongi and Jimin are my babies and I ship them hardcore. I wanna write a Yoonmin story, but I'm not sure people will read it. Suga is my bias and Jimin is my bias wrecker and they're so amazing. 
          
          My favorite songs have to be one of Suga's songs off his mix tape 'Agust D' and Jimin's song 'Serendipity' (which is totally a yoonmin song, I'm calling it). Then of BTS, Dope, Blood Sweat & Tears, Save Me, Young Forever. All of them basically, especially like Mic Drop with Steve Aoki. 
          
          I'm rambling, but that's all I wanted to say, peace. 
          
          -Alex

I'm a fucking liar, I'm gonna work on Back to You, it may be shit cause I've had this migraine for three days. 
          
          I haven't worked on the paper because I feel like someone is stabbing my repeatedly in the skull. But I'd rather do this which is less stressful than write a fucking pointless paper on the fact I'm just moving. How the fuck do you write a three page paper on moving? 
          
          Sorry, I'm angry, anyway, chapters twelve and thirteen will be up today sometime. It may be slow because everything on my head hurts. 
          
          -Alex complains too much

Its nearly two thirty in the morning and I can't sleep because of this migraine, the medicine I took, I just sicked back up. So most likely, I'm not going to school, which means no writing for a few days. 
          
          I say that because I have a 3-4 research paper on what I'm doing after high school...due Friday and I've barely started for reasons. I'm behind in math and school is really stressing me out and I absolutely need to graduate. I need to get out of here. 
          
          Anyway, just know that Back to You and anything else I'm doing is on hold until I'm stable enough to do it. I'll finish eleven (?) and post hopefully tomorrow but I have no clue how I'll feel. 
          
          I'm so sorry, I really wanted to be able to do this but I need to focus and keeping myself okay. 
          
          I hope you all understand, 
          
          Alex