I've thrived so hard to get my name out there and to be noticed. To get the bullying to stop. After years of constantly releasing stories, it took me a moment to realize that I don't have to release every year to prove a point anymore or to show anyone that I can write stories. I can relax and release on my own terms but I still thrive and push myself beyond limits to release stories each year with fellow Authors to be in their shoes. But I do also realize it is a response now that I live with because of all the hate that I got towards me personally that has affected my career. And it wasn't a gentle hate either, it was literally bullying to where I threatened to quit more than enough times. I got told to quit writing and publishing that I wasn't good enough. Added to that they would tear down my looks too, I admit, I am not the prettiest looking woman out there I have major faults but as many has told me I didn't deserve the way I was treated early in my career which has led to trauma responses on releasing books to prove I am good enough, to prove I am as good as the next Author.
So, yes, I can relax now to know that I don't have to prove myself at a drop of a hat. It took years to get passed that. It took years of realizing that I am good enough and have defined myself in the Community.