The best way I can think to make sense of how I'm feeling right now is using this: say you have this yellow piece of paper in a stack of white papers, it's a little tattered and crumpled but you're not really sure why and surrounded by many that paper is all on its own.... that paper has no one but to everyone else that paper has so many so no one understands why lonely is written on it....
You guys I am so sorry that I'm sparse and few with book updates and replies but every day is getting harder and harder to get out of my bed let alone make it out the house... im trying so hard but I don't seem to be making any progress....