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Honestly have issues with my sexuality and my mom finding out about a year ago and taking my phone and stuff. Got made issues with that, talked to my online friends occasionally on discord or amino or insta or wattpad when I could get my hands on technology. Had loads of huge fights and shit and thought I should make myself str*ight and stopped talking to everyone online, after like a short time of being in emotional pain and tryna get over my online friends that kind of thinking went away but I continued to never rlly talk to my online friends because every time I do make friends online or start talking to old ones or even get remotely close to any of them I have to leave them again and I get anxious that my mom will find out. At the moment, I got my phone back permanently, my mom thinks I'm str8 and I only occasionally talk to people on wattpad. I think though alot of online friends in the past were bad for my self esteem and gave me constant anxiety. Only a few didn't do that. I wanna get closer again to people but on my terms. Sooo I wanna get a few people's numbers to talk with. Idk why I'm saying this all bit I feel like I need to.