Letmebetrapped

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Terrible, every fucking thing in my life is terrible, or it's just my mind creating illusions and I'm falling for it, I've sunk deep, with no hope of rescue. Panic meds, low-life confidence and a fucking reflection in the mirror I want to smash the shit out of but can't because I'm a coward, afraid of pain.
          	
          	What the fuck was I even high on, when I wrote My Omegle Stranger, dreaming I'd have a beautiful life if not even Namjoon in it physically. Instead, I'm stuck in a nameless college, with a degree I have no interest on, or rather I've lost interest in studies altogether due to the failures in NEET attempt.
          	
          	If you remember "Shreya" the best friend of Aakanksha, one I genuinely thought as my BFF, we have broken apart, apparently, I wasted my parents' money on NEET institution, am obnoxious and very very very selfish. I might had been, I might am now. 
          	
          	But you know what that broken friendship left me with? Doubts in humans, can't trust them anymore. Had a genuine fights with my now roommates because of that, because I thought they were cornering me? Me? Who even am I to give that honor to myself that someone will give such a importance in their life? A delusional bitch, that's what I am. 
          	
          	I can't take it anymore, but I can't die yeah? That's what people with strong will do, taking their life? Me? I'm a coward, so do not worry, I won't take that step.

Letmebetrapped

@writermoon_x sorry, thank you, and no i won't forget you. You are one of the most cherished person I have in my life. But maybe I need to love myself a little if not much. I have hope, but it seems cruel. I feel like an imposter
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writermoon_x

@Letmebetrapped you have me on your side. Come on this platform you'll always find me here for you and with you. You aren't bad person di, the trauma, your past, your surrounding made you believe you're the bad person. No one could be as good as you. J seriously believe that and no I ain't saying this just for the sake of saying. You're a true fighter true warrior I believe you would come over this. You'll love your passion. You'll fall in love with someone. You'll be able to make your parents happy. You'll lead an happy life. All I wish best for you and you'll always find a girl (me) admiring you. ALWAYS. No matter how many years ahead in future. I'm still going to be proud of you my di. Even if you forget me I'll always remember you
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writermoon_x

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@Letmebetrapped no one's gonna hate you di. Fuck I'm so sorry you had to go through that stuff all alone. And no you aren't wasting your parents money. Come on no parents would want their kid to suffer. They want you happy at the end of the day. This must be really easy for me to say or maybe I'm selfish idk. But you have been an amazing person to everyone around you and you, yourself is a fighter. You gotta fight di come on.
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Letmebetrapped

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Terrible, every fucking thing in my life is terrible, or it's just my mind creating illusions and I'm falling for it, I've sunk deep, with no hope of rescue. Panic meds, low-life confidence and a fucking reflection in the mirror I want to smash the shit out of but can't because I'm a coward, afraid of pain.
          
          What the fuck was I even high on, when I wrote My Omegle Stranger, dreaming I'd have a beautiful life if not even Namjoon in it physically. Instead, I'm stuck in a nameless college, with a degree I have no interest on, or rather I've lost interest in studies altogether due to the failures in NEET attempt.
          
          If you remember "Shreya" the best friend of Aakanksha, one I genuinely thought as my BFF, we have broken apart, apparently, I wasted my parents' money on NEET institution, am obnoxious and very very very selfish. I might had been, I might am now. 
          
          But you know what that broken friendship left me with? Doubts in humans, can't trust them anymore. Had a genuine fights with my now roommates because of that, because I thought they were cornering me? Me? Who even am I to give that honor to myself that someone will give such a importance in their life? A delusional bitch, that's what I am. 
          
          I can't take it anymore, but I can't die yeah? That's what people with strong will do, taking their life? Me? I'm a coward, so do not worry, I won't take that step.

Letmebetrapped

@writermoon_x sorry, thank you, and no i won't forget you. You are one of the most cherished person I have in my life. But maybe I need to love myself a little if not much. I have hope, but it seems cruel. I feel like an imposter
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writermoon_x

@Letmebetrapped you have me on your side. Come on this platform you'll always find me here for you and with you. You aren't bad person di, the trauma, your past, your surrounding made you believe you're the bad person. No one could be as good as you. J seriously believe that and no I ain't saying this just for the sake of saying. You're a true fighter true warrior I believe you would come over this. You'll love your passion. You'll fall in love with someone. You'll be able to make your parents happy. You'll lead an happy life. All I wish best for you and you'll always find a girl (me) admiring you. ALWAYS. No matter how many years ahead in future. I'm still going to be proud of you my di. Even if you forget me I'll always remember you
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writermoon_x

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@Letmebetrapped no one's gonna hate you di. Fuck I'm so sorry you had to go through that stuff all alone. And no you aren't wasting your parents money. Come on no parents would want their kid to suffer. They want you happy at the end of the day. This must be really easy for me to say or maybe I'm selfish idk. But you have been an amazing person to everyone around you and you, yourself is a fighter. You gotta fight di come on.
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Letmebetrapped

Hey!
          Long time no see.
          Well, I'm here to bid farewell actually. Life happens and I'm stuck in between, in the to and fro motion. 
          
          I appreciate every person whowere there for me from the start or who joined me mid and stuck together. I'd miss you all.
          
          Recuperate, not completing that. Does that sound selfish? Maybe but as I logged in, I found out that book doesn't have that much views anyway and hence, I'm taking it down. 
          
          I promised someone to complete Jimin and Yoongi fic; sorry. Anyone, take that story and complete it. I'd be very grateful. 
          
          All in all. Goodbye.
          
          Love,
          Aashi

writermoon_x

@Letmebetrapped heyy come on di, no one's gonna hate you I promise. You're the only one who has gone through hell and no one is supposed to judge. Not even people who have already been in your shoe. And i believe you're gonna find your way back to your home.
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Letmebetrapped

@writermoon_x with constant failures and deeply rooted insecurities, I hate the person I've become and you might end up hating me too? What's the point, let's not go there shall we? Let me cherish you, have a good memory
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writermoon_x

@Letmebetrapped heyy di how are you doing? I hope everything is fine and good. Tbh I really miss you and sometimes I randomly remember our conversation how you motivated me and talked with me . Ahhh I really miss you di. Please text me when you're back.
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