I am not stupid Baby  ^^
          You always find me when you are bored.
          You always chat me when you want to do something what me.
          I have always given you what you want
          And I always try to have time with you
          I have done all the best I can
          But you're not.
          What did you expect from me?
          You expect I will be like a dog and always fulfill your word?
          Baby, I am not that kind of person ^^
          Once I give up I will not come again
          And you will see what you have missed ;)
          

Today is the day I will be far away from my family :(  
          I am scare :(

Talk nicely. 
          
          You don't know what they have been through.
          
          

Broken family doesn't always mean divorces

[6:15PM, 22/08/2019] : Thank you for always leaving me alone. Now I am used to it.
          
          [6:18PM, 22/08/2019]  :I realize that it's just my imagination thinking that you will stay alone. Of course you will find someone better
          
          [7:28PM, 22/08/2019] : I guess today not as bright as yesterday.
          
          [9:18PM, 22/08/2019] : Instead of being stuck in darkness, why not write a star that can shine a life in the dark. Try to create it as much as I can so that if one of it gone I have a few more as my hope to move on and keep going. ✨
          
          [11:17PM, 22/08/2019] : I know it is hard to do it but please do it for you if not for your family or someone you love. Atleast you have to try hard to be strong. Forgive all the pain and the person that give you the pain. You forgive them not because of them but because of you to make you be able to move on from the past. After that believe or not you will slowly forget about the pain and finally you can find the happiness.
          
          ~H

[6:15PM, 22/08/2019] : Thank you for always leaving me alone. Now I am used to it.
          
          [6:18PM, 22/08/2019]  :I realize that it's just my imagination thinking that you will stay alone. Of course you will find someone better
          
          [7:28PM, 22/08/2019] : I guess today not as bright as yesterday.
          
          [9:18PM, 22/08/2019] : Instead of being stuck in darkness, why not write a star that can shine a life in the dark. Try to create it as much as I can so that if one of it gone I have a few more as my hope to move on and keep going. ✨
          
          [11:17PM, 22/08/2019] : I know it is hard to do it but please do it for you if not for your family or someone you love. Atleast you have to try hard to be strong. Forgive all the pain and the person that give you the pain. You forgive them not because of them but because of you to make you be able to move on from the past. After that believe or not you will slowly forget about the pain and finally you can find the happiness.
          
          ~H

There are reasons why I hide myself from everyone. I am scare to them. It's scare me knowing that they can hurt me. I have been through a lot from my past and it teach me more about people around me.
          
          I once had a boy bestfriend. It went well between us until one day I know I had develop feelings for him. I had told him that I had feeling towards him but he didn't say anything. Next day I know that he talk bad about me with my friends. I felt betrayed. What hurt me the most is that my friends that he told to is my closest friends and they don't even say anything to me. It hurt me a lot. And froom that day I close my heart from being any closer to any boy friend. My personality will become automatically cold towards them and I am thankful for that. But sadly after years pass by, when I went to high school I met someone that make me feel more dangerous. I didnt know whether I should regret for knowing him or I should be thankful cause I fell for him. He make me open my heart and let him be the cure for my wound. But then it just a one-sided love. I don't what the feeling is. Whether it was love or just interest. But what I know is that I have like him for 3 years and I still do now. Even I know I should move on cause he already move to another school but still my heart never throw him away. It's hurt me cause he already have someone else. But it's my fault to for not confessing to him directly. Yeah should be my fault.
          
          I have been betrayed by two person in my life. From that I know that I should be more carefull in order to take of myself in the future. That the lesson that I have learn now.

Sadly I know something that rip my heart apart. Something that I thought I already move on. Never I thought he will be like that. I know he is someone who is cheerful and like a butterfly that fly in the sky. But he change drastically. How could that happen? If I know this will be happen I will never let him go. I  will never let him change to another school. This hurt me inside knowing he is not being well there. He should achieve his dreams there but it went wrong. I can't say much but I just wanna say that I do miss you a lot and I wish you are fine there. I want to be a good company for you but my heart say no. Sorry for not being there for you. I am sorry for hiding my feeling toward you and I hate myself for that. If you really come back next year, I hope I got to see the real smile from your handsome face. And I want to keep it that way. Never ever I will avoiding you again. I hope so. :3♡

"Imagine your face say hello to me then all the bad days they're nothing  to me with you~"
          
          Goodnight all..Hope tomorrow will be as bright as today ^_^ 
          
          How can someone change from sadness to happiness. I guess that what we call rainbow come after rain. 
          
          And I want to keep it like that :)

For the first time in forever I get money for my school treat from my father and i feel happy ^_^