Hi. i'm ____ and i am ___ years old. I live in ____. 
You dont care about that. 

I'm really sad. I seem to hate everyone, find something that makes me angry... I don't cry infront of people but when I get alone and think...well ... 

I have a father who left me and a mother do paranoid at getting us children a good life she forgets we need to be well... love I guess..........

NO one knows.. how seriously I hate this, how seriously I hate life. Everyone thinks I just get annoyed and sad once in a while. no. always. Just because I don't self harm doesn't mean i cant be in pain.... 

I've had it with people giving the hint that their more depressed or more sad than me as they self harm... Its not a compition! I wish I could say my life isn't bad. It isn't that bad, but my mind is.... Please.... 

And yes mum, I do eat less when I feel fat.. but no need to try and force me to eat, no need to get the entire family involded as you think im starving my self.. you know nothing.... you treat as though everything is perfect.. its not... im the only one in the family who can see clear.. dad left. LEFT. he has well come in contact with all my brothers and sisters but only come to contact with him when i begged. IVE TALKED TO HIM ONCE AND HE SAID HE IS THINKING ABOUT ME... ... it hurts to know im the reason, i don't want to believe it and it proberly isnt but my mind believes the reason he left is because of how weird i am... awkward strange,ugly,dumb,stupid, fat,useless.....