Life is cruel or bittersweet, and we all seem to lose ourselves in the demons we have in our heart.
I've been told to toss the evil aside and focus on the better parts of myself, the me before it all changed somehow.
There will never be forgiveness towards your mistakes until you admit the mistake to yourself, and then learn from it, and then forgive yourself later on.
I hope I'm learning that better now, because I need so much improvement.