Red Swan

if only me and my brother weren't born 

Did someone just went ahead and liked every single comment I made on this app, or is this a new update,  or is this a glitch?? Cause my notifications went bonkers 

I'm having toxic thoughts about myself, especially about the people around me, the people I love and i hate myself for this. I'm stuck in this loop of hating myself, then trying not to. 
          I'm having doubts about everything of me, my body, my academic, my potential. I'm losing hope of a good future. 
          I want to share this with my best friends but whenever I see them, it's like my body produces a positive reaction which makes me forget all these bad things, and right when I part from them, I'm back in tye graveyard of my mind.

i would feel more sane in a mental hospital than this house

lost to fate, left hanging, again 

i wish i wasn't born

i screamed at her. i hate myself 

when will i be able to breathe in this house again?

The difference between you and me is that you will think of going to the grave in old age, and I think about it now

It's so ironic how they act like I came to this world on my own will, like I owe them my life