Lewd_Enjoyer_

I got to like chapter 42 or something in the dogshit that is eminence in shadow. I can firmly say, I'm just done, I can't read anymore of that dogshit. It hurts, I was losing my mind, full schizo reading that shit.
          
          Like bro, I'm reaching some fucking generational levels of hate for this shit. I've never hated a piece of media more than this utter fucking slop.
          
          I'll probably end up reading the rest at some point cause I don't like leaving shit unfinished, but fuck me I hate this protagonist. The world is interesting to a degree, but my interest plummets if you put cid anywhere in this shit.
          
          That is all for my yearly post gentlemen.

Do I drive myself to the brink and read the rest of eminence in dogshit?

I just despise people who play fighting games, because there's never any semblance of mechanical skill. At least in guilty gear. There are three mainstream playstyles.
          
          Spam
          
          Zoning
          
          Turtling
          
          I hate all three of them, because they all just show how you're shit at the game. Spam playstyles only do well against slow characters like potemkin, its inherently a shit playstyle because its only useful for about 3 characters on the roster. This shit is so low skill, yet celestial Bridget players can just do it. And succeed.
          
          Because guilty gear is a throughly disappointing game.
          
          Zoning
          
          Zoning is not fun to play, watch or play against. Yet there are numerous characters in guilty gear that encourage Zoning. The only exception to something like that would be asuka, causes he's reliant on luck with what spells he gets. But zoners can do well even against rushdown because zoners have massive kits of anti air and general range.
          
          Turtling
          
          This is especially frustrating to see while playing potemkin. Because at round start, you can get a combo off. All of potemkins attacks are slow, yet these people turtle for the entire game. Its not even an effective strategy because attacks like slide head fuck you over and then you've become combo fodder. There's also numerous command grabs in the game.
          
          Overall, guilty gears roster is immensely flawed because the DLC are just so unfun to play against, even fucking base game characters like anji, axl and milia are miserable to play against.
          
          I reached celestial the other day, and the only characters I saw were brain dead no skill characters.
          
          This games player base is immensely shit.

Today has been fucking miserable, and it simply makes me realise, I hate my life. I hate everything.
          
          I hate people
          
          I hate the weather
          
          I hate myself
          
          All of it, I hate everything.
          
          Writing was something to take the edge off, something to do that was fun.
          
          But I've long since lost any and all motivation for it. Now, I should preface that I have extreme anger issues, but I'm fucking sick and tired of all the bullshit. I go on twitter and I see a dogshit opinion, I go on discord just to talk to friends. I'm fucking miserable, I play fighting games, I enjoy them, but I fucking despise how people play. They play the spammiest bullshit, they zone or they turtle.
          
          I may as well hook myself up to a noose and say oh well, let me just give you this win. I'm fucking done.
          
          I can't be assed anymore, before you get any concerns, I'm not killing myself. I don't have the balls for that.
          
          But I'm certainly taking an indefinite hiatus, do what you want with my stories if you will. I give you lot free reign to take them where you want to.

Just unpublished a bunch of stuff, for several reasons. Some of those stories were done impulsively, and frankly I'm not proud of that. But some of them I just needed to rewrite them, because I've gotten better as a writer and can no longer take pride in the cringy writing of my older stories.
          
          I do apologise if you like the stories, but looking back on them, I can't stand them.
          
          I don't know if I'll rewrite them all, but I do intend to at least rewrite visionary.
          
          However, I don't know when. Lately I've been busy with all sorts, and frankly I don't have a great amount of motivation for writing anymore. That might change, but it could just as easily stay the same.
          
          Guess we'll see

You ever feel like you're losing your mind? Like the intrusive thoughts are getting worse and worse?
          
          Been feeling like that lately, incredibly violent and fucked up thoughts. Dunno if I'm losing it or not, kinda positive that I'm not mentally sound though.

Somethings that's really sad for me is comments. I know Im being hypocritical considering I said that i want comments, but I'm unfortunately paranoid as shit. Every time I get a comment, I dont think "Oh, what's this going yo be about?"
          
          My immediate reaction is for my heart to start pounding and I panic. Writing is absolutely awful for my mental health.
          
          But for the time being, I'd like to keep going.

Probably gonna take a few week break from writing Wolf's bloody path, just feeling really demotivated, and I wanna take a break since the RWBY arc is done.

Shit man, I want comments. There's absolutely no feedback, and I would really appreciate some, but theres absolutely none.

Damn man, too many ideas and not enough motivation. I really wanna write a toji story.