Lexiemendes01
Hey there Lexie, This is lexie from October 2021. Things have changed.. and not really in a good way. Last time I wrote I was moving to Sd and starting ADT. To sum it up. Grandma brought a random man to "Help" drive me back to Sd with her because I was new at driving on the highway at the time. He ended up saying he was at our house for a vacation, grandma didnt tell grandpa that she was bringing this dude, and he tried to sexually assault Colleen. I think you can guess whether or not I went with them. After all of the conversations I had with grandma about my anxiety, and she thought it would be a good idea to bring a stranger to come help take me to South Dakota. GIANT red flag and I think I may have dodged a bullet. There are many other little details that she did that made my descion to stay final. Like pressuring me to leave 2 days earlier than agreed so she could go to a birthday party... not to mention she asked if we were being dramatic and if it was that serious that the RANDOM STRANGER was touch all over my 17 year old sister. Who SHE didnt know and he had no reason to be touching her.. I cant get into it right now. She got an earful from me already bit I will never trust or forgive her, she is a joke in my eyes. Anyways so that's what happened, oh and ADT sucked. I'm glad I got out when I could and i can honestly say i dont regret that decision. Soo now what. Ellie is going to school at a daycare and I sub there. I'm like a stay home nanny for the house. I'm terrified to get collage started and I dont really have a plan at the moment. My overall big plan was to get that stuff started in SD. But I can't complain, I have a roof im living under amd I'm with my siblings. I'll figure it out eventually, I just have to stay positive. So fun fact Savanna has been at a place called flyca for about four and a half months now. It's like a boot camp that helps you get geds and basically start your life.
Lexiemendes01
(Had to do a part 2) She comes home In a month amd IM SOO EXCITED, I miss her so much. We are going to do a ton of stuff and celebrate. I'm so proud of her for going out there and getting things done. She is such a good example and she is an incredible person. On that note.. Colleen has basically taken my place in SD but a few months later. She went to live with my grandparents even after everything that happened. And for her, she is doing extremely well and I'm super proud of her! I guess things have changed a bit there since February and that is great for them. Anywho, I'm still single and will probably be forever. I don't really mind it though to be honest.I still have no friends, I have CRIPPLING anxiety (Not self diagnosed). I dont know if I'll ever get over it to be honest. I tried therapy but still feeling this way. I hate to leave this on a bad note but I'm not going to hope you have a ton of money or already starting a career. I hope you are happy future lexie. Please know that it's going to be okay, that even if your goals arent accomplished yet that there is still time. Love you lots.
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