lex

Ya'll want to know a secret? I like talking Here bc i know that no one vere sees bc i dont have flowers but evry time im talking to pookie and they just sudenly tell me they're getting in a Dandys world run just like that even tho we Are talking it makes me wnat to RIP my head of and bash it into a wall untill my hands cant move anymore and they i reatach ut and start to scream, i know she loves Her other friends but MUTER FUCKING DAMIT UT HURTS. SO DEAM. BAD. IT MAKES ME WNAT TO KMS

Ok so im actuly Real Mad at pookie rn
          IF i dont respond to a text of Her FINALY coming online [time difrencees so im not mad about Her coming on when its late for me] she will alredy disapear and not care to check back of i responded and will go to wach YouTube or play Dandys world for a hour or more and ill just be waiting bc there Is no Point in trying to messeg Her more after that she will not see it till she comes back online later agein when she Has a thing to tell me about and i was completly fine with this for a scerten amount of time bc things hapend yk? But its so offten and ill it gouse Is "sorry D:" and ill tell Her its ok things hapend but omg its on my fucking nerva at this point!! Not to meantion IF it hapends in the middle of a convo i dont respond emedietly she will leve right away as well to play FUCKING DANDYS WORLD im so happy she Has a thing to enjoy but GOD FUCKING DEAM IT I WZLD NOT HEAR FROM HER FOR LIKE 10-20 INBETWEN EVRY MESSEG BC SHE RANDOMLY DESIDED TO HO DO WHAT? PLAY DANDYS WORLD. and i dont kniw how to bring it up but Her lack of responding at like most of the time Is just to much at this Point and all Shell say when she comes back Is "sorry D:" yea sure you are

Omg i told pookie that i wuld be right back when i eat but someway some how i forgot about iz t and then was 11but now its 1am I HATE UT WHY DID I GAVE TO FORGWT ABOUT IT I HATE MYSELF

You dont get it guys i need them to tell me they love me and Are proud of me and to tell me im gorgeus 24/7 im sucha shity person

I need like CONSTANT atention like alweys at evry time of the day or i start felling unwell and have a break down 
          But Here Is the thing that makes me just a spoild shit whos acting ti yound for its age and i just wnaz to alweys be praisd for even so as simpely existing that wuld be wunderfull just to know evry second doing something or not the Person Is proud of you
          But thats way ti much to Ask for any they will probebly forget about it or just hate me for it so i have to act like im normal

I love it so much when pepole compliment me espesialy when pookie does it buta its so selfish to as Her to compliment me some more

OMG POOKIE IS SO COOL AND AMAZING AND SMART I NEED TI TELL HER BUT I DONT WANT SEAM DERANGD I MEAN I AM BUT THEN SHE WILL FINDE ME ANNOYING AND TO MOCH AHDGHSHAGAGAGSZSVSVSJT

Im trying to be so normal and not annoying so Bad so i go "^_^" when in fact i am ragning with emotions

Ugh i keep being the one thats manky talking im do annoying why am i doing this shes so annoying probebly rn

Talking with babe and i want to randozstart telling them how much i love and care for them and how much they mean to me and apologyz for being a burden on them but that wuld be to random and they wuld get worid and thats a no no