Okay wattpad is being weird and I can't reply directly to you for whatever reason but I so feel you. I've had this idea for awhile but with college and then trying to finalize some of my other shiz it just hasn't been working.
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Addicted to You by Krista & Becca Ritchie
It's free on iBooks I'm sure you can downloaded somewhere. It's a life changing book. I beg of you to look this book and read it. It will change you it changed me. Broke me and let me shattered. I love this book. I sobbed at the ending. It hurts but god its so realistic... Just look into it.