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I have a conspiracy theory but there’s no science or spirituality behind it, just vibes.
          
          Is it just me and my circle, or have creatives been going through it these past few weeks/months? Like... everyone I know who makes things—writers, designers, content creators, gamers, etc.—has been depleted.
          
          The energy’s been low, the spark’s been flickering, and even the ones who did manage to create said it felt like drawing water from a stone.
          
          Is it a collective creative burnout? A cosmic reset? The change of seasons? I don’t know. But it’s been real quiet in the inspiration department.
          
          Did anyone else feel it too, or is it just us?

We are officially 4 days, 18 hours, and 42 minutes away from Comrades Marathon 2025! When I tell you it’s happening! 
          
          All the athletes are in full-on taper mode: resting, hydrating, carb loading... and you know what? So am I. 
          
          Am I running 90km on Sunday?
          Absolutely not.
          But am I carb loading like I am?
          Absolutely YES.
          
          Because carbs are delicious. And carbs + naps = the actual dream. 
          
          Side note: What are we even going to do with our lives after Comrades?! 

How Could We update:
          
          We're going with Option 2, I'll use Option 1 when we get to Because We Could.
          
          Happiness?

Went back to that strength and conditioning class today to redeem myself.
          
          Unlike yesterday, I wasn’t just there for vibes, I came to WORK. Energy was up, weights were up, and so was the pressure lol
          
          Redemption arc: completed. 
          Muscles: screaming.
          Honour: restored.

On today's episode of why I miss Durban.
          
          So today I went to the gym purely for vibes. Like, if there was a yoga or stretch class, I would've 100% done that and gone home feeling accomplished. But nooo, the only option was strength and conditioning.
          
          I like the instructor, so I figured, I’m already here, let me somma join. She says we’re using kettlebells and dumbbells, so everyone must set up their stations. Obviously, I’m here on chill mode so I grab the lightest weights—6kg kettlebell, 6kg dumbbells.
          
          Did this woman not look me dead in the eye and say, "Karabo, increase your weights. I’ve seen your husband, I know you lift heavy."
          
          Ma’am???
          
          I miss being in a city where nobody knows me fr.

Reason #1123 on why I'm beefing with my husband.
          
          My husband is such a hater. So the cute lil writing retreat with the girlies is happening this weekend, right? We're leaving on Thursday. I'm currently getting braids done in preparation for the creative greatness. Him and I have been chatting back and forth before the hairdresser got here. Now I tell him I’m busy helping the hun pick the hairpiece, so he should expect delayed replies. This man goes on to say there’s no way any writing is happening on that retreat if I’m getting braids, because apparently I’ve never had braids and stayed inside.
          
          My argument is that being inside while I'm outside is not the same as being inside while I'm at home, but he doesn't get it coz he's a hater!

The thing I absolutely love about my country is how all of a sudden, everyone can speak and understand Afrikaans now that the GreatTsek has happened. 
          
          Someone on TikTok had me in TEARS painting a picture of how one of the 49s is in a restaurant in the US right now, looking at the menu like...
          
          "As julle het die New York strip, ek soek die Bloemfontein vokken koei, hoor? Ek gan nie twee honderd dollars betaal vir daai New York strip nie, daar is vokken klein goet! Weet jy van Wimpy? Do you know what is a Wimpy? At Wimpy, for R100, ek kry vokken steak, ek kry eiers—drie eiers! Met wings—ses wings! Nou julle kom hier met jou vokken twee honderd? Neeeeeh, ek gaan nie vir daai kak betaal nie!"
          
          Meanwhile, the American waiter’s standing there like
          
          “Sooo yay or nay on the New York Strip?”
          
          I still haven't recovered!

My toxic trait is I will very much start something new instead of finishing what I already started—even when the original plan was to set aside time to finish what I already started.
          
          New things are just so exciting! I physically cannot resist diving in... until the hype fades. Then the unfinished things start haunting me, and I spiral into this loop: wanting to start something new and needing to finish what’s already on my plate.
          
          Current example? I learned how to animate for a project at work. Now, I’m obsessed with the idea of creating a whole animated cartoon series. Do I have time for that? Absolutely not. But can I stop thinking about it? Also no.
          
          Help meeeeee!

Hey guys. FYI: They enabled text-to-speech on How Could We.
          
          Little update, one of my students is going on a writing retreat so she can get started on her research thesis. She's invited me so I can also knock out a few chapters on the books. I'll probably only work on Between Hearts.
          
          We're going on the week of the 30th May. So you can expect a leeedle bit of a bulk update during the 1st week of June before we disappear for Comrades.
          
          Speaking of Comrades, here's Hubs' stats over the years. The race is 89km.
          
          2018 - 10:30:57
          2019 - 08:31:42
          2022 - 08:22:13
          2023 - 07:46:06
          2024 - 07:45:26
          
          For 2025, we're aiming for 07:00:00. If he gets it, then I also have to get my IIBA certification this year. That's the bet. So yeah. Pray for the minister y'all.
          

My life so private. My own husband doesn't know I'm a millionaire testing his loyalty. He just has to take me out tonight to pass the test.