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Shit, I hate overthinking pero siguro hindi naman yon maiiwasan. People have emotions, different emotions to be exact. Gusto ko sabihin..gusto ko ilabas ket sa isang tao lang. Pero hindi ko magawa, ni hindi ko nga mabuhos ung luha HAHAHAHAHA. Taenaa bakit hindi ko narealize na kanina pa pala ako nagpipigil?
There's this one time..na another person told me "Hindi ka naman matalino, mawawala kaden sa top kase magpapublic ka" It also hurt as hell. But look where I am now, I am still on top. I didn't expect myself to be on top last school year. It is my first time in public school and I have to make adjustments. There's many student who learn and teacher can't make time for your learning problems. They are so competitive that they almost forgot that they are there to learn and not a fucking competition to earn.
So here's the story, I did what I can. Balanced ako nun, Ineenjoy ko lang tapos makikipagkilala, tawanan at kung ano ano pa na chill lang ako. Then after the periodical exam, my teacher said there's only a four person who got on top. I didn't expect my self to be there also my classmate didn't also think na makakasama ako. Pano ba naman, chill kase ako..hindi ako nakikipagvolunteer, wala akong ginagawa para makilala ng teacher. You know, typical lowkey student. Then may isa akong kaklase na insiip na makakasama ako sa top pero sabi niya "Ay baka nga hindi" may kumontra kase kaya niya binaba ung boto saken. Pero like what I said..I also didn't hope for myself to be on top. Nung pagdating ko sa school, they ask what average do I got. I said I didn't know. I really didn't try to calculate my grades. Then there's this one girl who encourage me to do so, close ko siya so I did. She smile when she saw what my average was. Siya na din mismo yung nagyabang (Ang kulit :>) after nun, yung competitive kong mga kaklase tinitignan lng ako. Maybe they didn't also expect me to have that grade.
Is it my fault that I am not competitive? Masama bang maging lowkey?
