Okay, I read this old message of mine and felt sorry for myself :(( I realized I was forcing myself to write a story (back at that time), completely unexperienced, and being pressured to own at least 1 book. Without even having a detailed plots of the story and chapters... I felt so drained I gave up on it, but here I am back with a genuinely 'I want to write a book' mode and it hits different to pressuring myself to write. Turns out I still want to write :)) Hope you learn from this, especially if you're a young author with big dreams <33