dead

I'm removing my Jisteria smuts.
          
          Now that I've revisited this account I find it so fucked up how I literally wasted most of my teenage years with a clearly unhealthy obsession with people who play some retarded kids game who also barely knew I existed to them and just bluntly flaunting my obsession like its fashionable to me. It's an overstatement and all but shipping them also turned me into a horrible person. In 2016 or something i was in a group chat with other users who hated Aparri and ended up losing their respect because of my behavior as I constantly pressured and guilted them because they also shipped Jisteria back then and using my so-called "emotional attachment" to Julian and Wisteria/verbal abuse from my relatives as an excuse for my behavior. It's also so disturbing how I considered the smuts I write and the attention I get from them as my livelihood back then.
          
          Basically Jisteria/shipping real people basically turned me into a shitty over-obsessive person. I won't be republishing them, I'll be removing some more of my sexual Jisteria stuff whenever I can.

how long has it been?
          
          yeah i haven't been active here for like almost 2/3 years or smth like that, due to my busy life i've just gradually drifted away from this account. 
          
          my love for jisteria actually dwindled considerably over the time i was gone. since i'm bringing that up, i guess i'll admit that i don't like julian and wisteria anymore??? i actually didn't like wisteria since she started becoming "hyper" in her videos, in my opinion that's when i started disliking her because i honestly felt like the only reason she's doing that is because she's only leading on that gimmick just to get more subscribers asides from keeping her audience entertained. plus the fact that she posts a bunch of dead memes on her instagram to try to stay relevant, bitch get over yourself 
          
          and did anyone else see how much subscribers she lost over the past few months like shes down to 299k lmaoooo, she on average alone loses like 33 a day last time i checked socialblade
          
          with julian, back then i would never say this but julian's become a major asshole. this is more pronounced on him ever since he quit the community, he honestly acts like a special snowflake with a stick up his arse, now hes just living like an upper-class white dude
          
          and i'm,,,,, just laughing so hard at aparri he's literally a soundcloud rapper trying to promote his shit career on ig lmao 
          
          asides from ridiculing my childhood idols, about the future of this account i'm not active here as much anymore, but in the future i might drop a story occasionally/when i get a chance (for nostalgia's sake)
          
          godspeed, to anyone who still even visits here i guess!!!!!!!

not dead, just radio silent

next chapter will be delayed until sometime tomorrow or in a few days, it actually was halfway done for a while along with a few others but i didn't really have enough time to finish it

Go read my new story.
          
          Or not. Whatever

ok so like it nanowrimo and ii want to enter SO bad but the second chapter of my upcoming fic is like over 11000 words long and its obviously not eligible so fuck my life

STEVEN UNIVERSE FUTURE, MOTHERFUCKER

Meepmorp

I'll be releasing a new fanfic really soon; although I won't be giving away any details on any idea of what it'll be, all you need to know about it is that there'll be a bunch of drama and a whole lot of crying.

raining like hell over in my area, watching bela a feia and writing until my fingers fall off ✨