HaidynGrimes

His whisky kisses are addictive... I can't help it...

Ok so like... I forgot about wattpad... And I forgot I even had a phone... Because like... Most of my life is spent daydreaming. So yeah... I've gotten to the point where this life is less of a home then my dreams. My dreams are so good. Everyone is nice... I don't get hurt... I'm actually pretty... I don't get bullied... I don't have to hide my true self... So like... Yeah. Sorry but if you have tried to talk to me and I haven't answered its because I simply forgot that everyone exists... I can barely even look at my body. Because it feels like it's not mine. It isn't mine. It hasn't been mine for a while... I can't tell which life is real or fake... But I'm guessing this one. Because what's real is always the one I wouldn't prefer.
           To all of my friends: I'm sorry I've grown distant. I'm sorry I haven't even tried to care. I just... Can't. 
          
          To all of you who read this: I don't remember you... It's not that you are unimportant... It's just... Impossible. 
          
          This life was never meant to be mine. And it never will be. So now I'm just gonna let myself seperate from the world... Bye for probably forever... 

I literally wish I was in last night's dream. I had a dream where a new boy came into my school (he was like chonky and so cute.) And he liked me and our class was watching citezen Kane (VERY GOOD MOVIE BTW TRANSITIONS AHEAD OF ITS TIME) and he was sitting next to me and he put his head on my shoulder and DYRUJDBDGDHDDIDJHDEHHEHEHEJ
          
          LIKE WHAT?! SO CUUUUUUTE. 
          
          For once, my dream wasn't weird. Normally they are like:
          
           Grandpa was watering a Dino bone and it grew fruit bats so he killed them and planter their bones and then a giant beanstalk grew and guess what was up in the sky? A GIANT PIECE OF CORN. BUT IT WASN'T WEARING ANY CLOTHES. and so grandma hit him with a frying pan made out of lasagna. 

Are you ever up at 3am just happy that every single one of your online friends exist? The funny thing is its not even 3am...i just can't sleep. And where have I always gone whenever I feel not ok? Wattpad. To read. But what can I not do due to my ADHD? Focus on one book at a time. Or one person. Cuz I click on the persons profile and see that one of my friends is following them and I'm like "oh I know them" and I click on THEIR profile and see who is following them. Another friend. Repeated process. And then I look at the type and see only like ten minutes have passed but I've checked like 50 people so I'm just overthinking like:"WAIT DO I HAVE SUPERPOWERS?! I AM FASTER THAN I IMAGINED! SHOULD I RUN A RACE TO SEE? oh wait... Maybe I should just eat Oreos instead. 
          
          so if someone were to ask me where was I tonight?... I was in the kitchen somehow watching YouTube on wattpad and eating Oreos. 

Due to family issues I cannot update. I should be back by new years. So basically what happened is like ten of my family members died. My grandpa had a heart attack, my 3 cousins cousin died in a house fire, my aunt died for some reason I can't remember, my aunt just had a baby, my other aunt just had a baby, and ik babies don't count as ppl dying but basically it kills the parents social life so yeah. Also, my grades are plummeting along with my mental health (not like she or kms probs just sadness and anxiety and like not talking to people) and like my flashbacks are getting really bad and school (was my safe place) is now a space I have to hide everything in and my gf who lives across the country has a strict mom who won't let her be lesbian and also like she won't text me bc her mom doesn't want her to, meanwhile my ex who broke my heart wants me to date her again and basically I'm just trauma dumping. And also, Pinterest has talked me out of every hope I've ever had  (crying face emoji × ∞) 

DALLAS WINSTON'S BIRTHDAY! YAAAAAY!!! 

Thanks for the follow.
          
          Outsiders is awesome,they actually did a good job with the movie,better then some others *cough Percy Jackson  movies cough cough
          
          Anyway have a great day or night :)

Ok so I'm working on a Cedfia (Cedric x Sofia) fic because that's just me. I'm starting with a royal mess (episode 5) and yeah. But like let's pretend Sofia is just turning 18 so this isn't illegal bc Cedric is 39  something is very wrong with me. 

Text 5853073556. This is me. I want best friends. 

Random writing idea:
          
          When you were seven, you held a fake wedding in the park whith a person you just met. Then you never saw them again. 
          
          Until one day, thirteen (can obviously be changed) years later, you get a letter in the mail. Where your marriage offer is still acceptable to the future king.