Due to family issues I cannot update. I should be back by new years. So basically what happened is like ten of my family members died. My grandpa had a heart attack, my 3 cousins cousin died in a house fire, my aunt died for some reason I can't remember, my aunt just had a baby, my other aunt just had a baby, and ik babies don't count as ppl dying but basically it kills the parents social life so yeah. Also, my grades are plummeting along with my mental health (not like she or kms probs just sadness and anxiety and like not talking to people) and like my flashbacks are getting really bad and school (was my safe place) is now a space I have to hide everything in and my gf who lives across the country has a strict mom who won't let her be lesbian and also like she won't text me bc her mom doesn't want her to, meanwhile my ex who broke my heart wants me to date her again and basically I'm just trauma dumping. And also, Pinterest has talked me out of every hope I've ever had (crying face emoji × ∞)
