LiteralLoser<3

I'm in one of the unisex bathrooms at school and tell me why someone has knocked and attempted TO PICK THE LOCK over 6 times in the past 5 minutes even with me YELLING I'm in here????

It didn't stain

I have 2 diff style clown paint on my face y'all, it's mostly black.
          
          I'mma go wash it and lyk if it stained my skin (I will throw a hissy fit.)

You are the light.
          It's not on you,
          It's in you.
          Don't you ever, in your mother fucking life,
          Dim your light for nobody.
          Chromakopia
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          St. Chroma by Tyler The Creator.

LITERALLY CHANTING CHROMAKOPIA WITH ST. CHROMA UGHFGNAIOCHQVJ

I AM FEIGNING OVER TYLER THE CREATOR'S NEW ALBUM GUYS JIFHJLGOROEIKPSVC

Chromakopia album by Tyler The Creator = New drug

Tell me why my bsf just texted me at 3:54 am saying that Dr.Pepper is just barbecue flavored soda....

Pt.2 since max letter count
          
          I managed to get ahold of him earlier to tell him I loved and miss him, he said it back but sounded hella distant before literally hanging up before I could even think of saying something.
          
          I dunno what to do.

I'm actually fucking terrified rn guys, me and my bf don't go to school tgth anymore due to me moving to another school for safety reasons. 
          
          Due to me not being allowed to date (I'm in high school) and because my mom quite literally hates him for some stupid shit I'm not allowed to see him besides sneaking out which is rare since I just moved in a couple weeks ago. 
          
          He texted me yesterday asking to talk.
          (My mom hates that we're 'friends' but I still text him)
          
          I called him like 2 minutes after since I had finally slipped away from my mom and grandma (we were out visiting a nature park) and he told me he didn't think this would work out due to not being able to see each other or talk much.
          
          I love this man to death meaning I actually begged him to at least try and make things work between us which he agreed to do and helped me calm down.
          
          Yet last night I called him because I was panicking and really needed to talk to him because for some ungodly fucking reason he's the only person capable of calming me down in less than 15 minutes.
          
          He answered halfway thru the last ring and we talked, he calmed me down, reassured me that we weren't breaking up but ended up hanging up after like 10-15 minutes because his friend was over. 
          
          He's never hung up because his friends were over.
          
          I've called him like 4 times today and each time, he had an excuse.
          
          I called almost 3 hours ago and he texted me that he couldn't talk because he was at his NA (narcotics anonymous) group which I know he goes to because I've met all of them myself but 1, it's never on Monday, 2 it's never this late. It ends at 5 pm and I called around 8:30 but I still haven't gotten a call or a text.
          
          I'm fucking panicking because my life literally revolves around him, I think about him all the damn time because I've known I've liked him since 2nd grade. It's been a long goddamn time.
          
          Like if he wants to leave then I won't stop him but I'd be lying if I say it won't hurt me in so many more ways than 1.