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TW: curses, suci**, mental heath, don’t real while little.
1/?
So I’ve been gone for a while! I’m thinking of switching platforms for a bit, im on a small site called pixilart.com my user is @mynameisbabs, I’m a purple bunny, i promise I’ll be back for you my dears, but I can’t stay here, nobody really cares about me anymore and it’s been hurting my self esteem, I chat with loooots of people, but it’s always one sided. It feels like I’m doing all the work, I won’t say any names or anything, because that’s shitty behavior, if you do that you’re shitty. Sorry,not sorry. I haven’t been little in ages, because I can’t do it alone, Im trying to find some littlespace meditations or asmr, so if you have any suggestions please let me know. I’ve been feeling really icky, not sick, but like bad mental health. I don’t know when I’ll be back, or even if I will get back, but I’ll try, I’ll try because I’ve meant too many wonderful people to just end it all, I can’t do that to them, I cant do it! I won’t do anything so get it out of your heads. I feel kinda worthless, I’m fat, dumb and ugly. I need to get this out, I can’t tell anyone in my real life or I’d get sent to a mental hospital. This summer has been the best one of my life, I’ve made bonds, that could last a lifetime, and I wouldn’t break them for shit. I really don’t care about this anymore, I don’t know when I’ll take up my books again, hopefully soon, but I have no motivation, I’ve started a comic on pixilart and it’s taking a lot of time, prob cause my dumb, tiny, stupid, idiot, empty brain keeps deleting the fucking art! I wanna be ignorant! I wanna be a dumb baby with less brain than I have now! It’s not fair! I was RUINED! I was 8! 8… i cant do this, I try to slip and my stupid brain thinks of one word,one stupid word… dick… what the fuck! I keep going back to that little 8 year old! I don’t even like men! Men are scary and horrible. They scare me, Facebook scares me, Facebook ruined me, it did It ruined me.