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Wanted to update you guys, since itā€™s beenā€¦ (Checks calendar) Almost six months? Itā€™s been radio silence since my last post. Yā€™all deserve it.
          	
          	So, I donā€™t think Iā€™m gonna post any more of my projects here. Itā€™s been fun, donā€™t get me wrong. And Iā€™ll leave up the one story I DO have. But Iā€™d like to get my next book (whatever it may be) published. Iā€™ve been experimenting a lot this year with my writing, and when I returned to the NotA sequel, it just wasnā€™t the same? Like, I didnā€™t hate it, but I kinda think that Iā€™ve long outgrown it, and I need to expand my skills beyond that plot line. It was definitely a fun experience, but I donā€™t think itā€™s my magnum opus anymore. (Plus, opening up a sequel really showed me how many plot holes the story has, and I think that trying to fill them would just create more plot holes.) 
          	
          	Also, I really canā€™t see that story getting published. As much as it will always be special to me, I donā€™t think thatā€™s the story I want to be what Iā€™m known for. Just weighing out the pros and consā€¦ I think thereā€™s way more drawbacks to that than I anticipated. So, a sequel isnā€™t impossible, but I wouldnā€™t brace myself for it. Itā€™s pretty much a 1 in 100 chance. 
          	
          	So, I guess Iā€™m just kinda growing up now. Not a bad thing, just strange. I mean, Iā€™m 17 now. At some point I had to accept that the story I started at 13 isnā€™t as impressive as it was for its time. (I also need to think of my futureā€” Iā€™m not gonna be a homeschooled, bored teenager forever.)

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This year and a half has taught me a lot, and it feels like a lifetime since the start of 2023. That part of me is miles away, and while itā€™s been upsetting to watch my passion for my old works slowly die, itā€™s also quite refreshing to grow up and learn to love all of these new parts of me.
          	  
          	  (Alsoā€¦ in the other post, I meant ā€œDonā€™t brace yourself for itā€. Itā€™s way too late for proper grammar.)
          	  
          	  I might post again, or I might not. Who knows at this point tbh. See yall when I see you again.
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Wanted to update you guys, since itā€™s beenā€¦ (Checks calendar) Almost six months? Itā€™s been radio silence since my last post. Yā€™all deserve it.
          
          So, I donā€™t think Iā€™m gonna post any more of my projects here. Itā€™s been fun, donā€™t get me wrong. And Iā€™ll leave up the one story I DO have. But Iā€™d like to get my next book (whatever it may be) published. Iā€™ve been experimenting a lot this year with my writing, and when I returned to the NotA sequel, it just wasnā€™t the same? Like, I didnā€™t hate it, but I kinda think that Iā€™ve long outgrown it, and I need to expand my skills beyond that plot line. It was definitely a fun experience, but I donā€™t think itā€™s my magnum opus anymore. (Plus, opening up a sequel really showed me how many plot holes the story has, and I think that trying to fill them would just create more plot holes.) 
          
          Also, I really canā€™t see that story getting published. As much as it will always be special to me, I donā€™t think thatā€™s the story I want to be what Iā€™m known for. Just weighing out the pros and consā€¦ I think thereā€™s way more drawbacks to that than I anticipated. So, a sequel isnā€™t impossible, but I wouldnā€™t brace myself for it. Itā€™s pretty much a 1 in 100 chance. 
          
          So, I guess Iā€™m just kinda growing up now. Not a bad thing, just strange. I mean, Iā€™m 17 now. At some point I had to accept that the story I started at 13 isnā€™t as impressive as it was for its time. (I also need to think of my futureā€” Iā€™m not gonna be a homeschooled, bored teenager forever.)

Livi_Dreamscape

This year and a half has taught me a lot, and it feels like a lifetime since the start of 2023. That part of me is miles away, and while itā€™s been upsetting to watch my passion for my old works slowly die, itā€™s also quite refreshing to grow up and learn to love all of these new parts of me.
            
            (Alsoā€¦ in the other post, I meant ā€œDonā€™t brace yourself for itā€. Itā€™s way too late for proper grammar.)
            
            I might post again, or I might not. Who knows at this point tbh. See yall when I see you again.
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Hey guys!! Little (huge) updateā€¦ things are weird!!
          
          So the story Iā€™m currently writing, West Wind (Iā€™ll call it WW for short) is most likely not going to happen. My reasoning for the decision to stop writing it is quite long, personal, and involves a lot of overthinking, but Iā€™ll try to condense it and make it something I wouldnā€™t regret showing to the whole internet.
          
          My whole reasoning for writing WW was built on imposter syndrome and spending too much time on religious TikTok. It was not built on a foundation of love for the story. It was out of fear that the story began, and it never quite got out of the shadow of its predecessor, NotA. (If that makes sense).
          
          My contempt for the story only grew over time, because I felt as though my relationship with God was dependent on me writing it. Bad mindset to have. To make a very long story short, I trained myself into thinking that writing for my own enjoyment was a sin. (1/2)

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Iā€™d really like to go back to writing Moonlight over Brooklyn, but honestly, the thought of writing anything is terrifying to me right now. Iā€™ve damaged my mental and spiritual wellbeing, and right now I just need to focus my energy on uprooting every toxic belief Iā€™ve taught myself. 
            
            But, I know that this definitely isnā€™t where the story ends, and Iā€™m not at the end of the road. Things get better every day. But I just need to not write right now. Currently, I feel no joy from writing stories, and i need to find new things to do in the meantime. 
            
            Thanks for bearing with me. God be with you all!
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Update!! I want to eat aquarium gravel.

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@Livi_Dreamscape Also since I'm here I might as well introduce some of the new (New-ish? I've been writing this story since March) characters that you guys have heard absolutely nothing about. Spoiler-free.
            
            -Margaret (Maggie) Ndah: Female, 18, Average goth twitter user, can't freaking shut up, feeds every stray cat she sees, says she "doesn't swear" but she actually cusses about 575778476 times a day.
            
            -Elliot Yildiz: Male, 18. Remembers everything you have ever said or did, doesn't talk to new people, gets kicked out of the house regularly to "make friends" (He just goes to the library to study who-the-hell-knows-what), Says "Oh gee wilkers" when he gets scared instead of screaming.
            
            -Ahiga Galihai: Male, 16. Says he can sing (He cannot), prints out pictures of other people's dogs and tapes them to his wall, has no idea that most people DON'T own a vacation home in the bahamas, makes his friends watch "My little pony: friendship is magic" When they get into fights.
            
            -Luca Suarez: Male, 17. Average male soccer player, tells "your mom" jokes to anyone who will listen, insanely popular for literally no reason, on Alpha Male tiktok, still says "Only in ohio" in 2023. My sister calls him "Luca BigToes" and I want to annihalate her for that.
            
            -Mui: Female, 15. No last name because surnames are for the weak. Started a "Stray cat roleplay" club when she was eight and forced people to join, would drink garbage juice for a dollar, would literally stab you for saying "gyatt".
            
            -Anise Nochenvyy: Female, 16. Had a skibidi toilet themed birthday party, thinks that unseasoned chicken tastes good, has a live laugh love sign hanging in her room (She hasn't lived or laughed since 2013), licks her finger before turning the page on her kindle, refers to mint as "cold spicy"
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Ok.............. :)
          
          Idk what I'm doing right now, all I know is that I'm gonna be okay. God has my back. I'm realizing that maybe, I don't have to chose between one story or the other. Maybe I can work on multiple things at once. I always thought that would be too overwhelming, since it's a lot of characters and plots and subplots to take care of. But maybe it won't be as bad as I think. When I'm feeling burnt out from one thing, I can work on the other to decompress.
          
          Just a thought. I'm still deciding on some things in my writing life. But everything will be alright, no matter what I decide on doing.

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God's got this.
          
          Whenever you start to get overwhelmed with something, or you feel like a task is too big for you, know that the One who has overcome death is holding your hand through it and guiding your steps. He controls the circumstances He put you in. Give your problems, your doubts, your fears over to God, and He'll help you overcome all of it.