Living Trashmouth

Writing all that down has made reality hit me and um. Yeah I'm not feeling well.

Needless to say (regarding my last 2 posts), yeah I'm pretty dead inside. 
          All my friends are busy asf and I'm sick so.
          What have I been doing?
          Watching Smosh video.
          
          Also my teeth are rotting out of my mouth and hurt like a mf but our insurance doesnt cover dental care and my dad has dept with wver dental company here so 
          I'm just going to gave to deal with my teeth throbbing as I suck on cough drops to hopefully stop coughing and also to keep my mouth wet

Last post said, the kids' dad was bailed out of jail for a couple day so he came here to hang out with his kids before eventually being arrested again cause the system is corrupt.
          Three things happened:
          1. One of the kids got me sick so ive been dying since, my head hurts from coughing
          2. My brother (who came back here for sone reson then decided to stay and was living in his gfs parents garage) went back to the state he WAS living in cause he had a herring for a ticket. My mom told him not to go cause it was suspicious and she was right cause they arrested him for rape. Apparently, according to my brother, he was dating this girl while he was on a break with his current gf and when he broke up with her she threatened to accuse him of rape to get him to stay. He didn't and now he's here. Not blaming him, and its also very believable because my brother is a magnet to crazy people, but I also have a hard time blindly trusting him.
          Anyways, my dad started harassing my mom, trying to get her to admit we had money and to pay for his bail.
          We do NOT have money. We are POOR. I don't know how in my dads head he's convinced himself we have anything. 
          He was telling my mom to pawn shit like, no?
          My brother can sit his ass in hail for a couple weeks like fuck man. No one needs to be paying his bail.
          We've slent, collectively, 300+ dollars on his commissary cause ge is calling and texting people off the hook. His bail? 2k. That's 15% of his bail on bullshit.
          He can rot hus ass in there idgaf.
          3. During a conversation about all of this with my dad, a police officer taped something to our door. What you may ask? A "Pay or Leave" order from our landlord. Basically, pay your rent in the next 7 days or we'll evict you. 
          That was on Saturday. 

My mom got suspended from her job that shes been trying to get for 2 weeks (unemployed), and then training for 3 weeks (paid). She only
          worked for about 4 weeks before that happened.
          Why? Because she crashed into a pole in the parking lot of a gas station a knocked a panel off the door of the company van. I try not to get mad at my mom for stuff like that because I know how stressed she is, however, this happened a couple days before Thanksgiving; and she told me when I was hanging out with family I dont get to see often, over text. She probably wouldn't have gotten suspended, but shes been arguing with her manager because her manager is a bitch, but when you have a good job and you're in a rough situation where you probably wont be able to get another job for a while, you should probably just stfu and deal with it.
          
          At the same time, the kids that I've been burdened with had a court case that Monday. The kids' aunt has nothing to do with the case, yet insists to fuck shit up for us constantly. So recently she decided that the kids should have weekdays here and weekeds at their grandparents (where as it used to be reversed) and also one full week every month with us.
          
          This is annoying. The grandparents are retired, they have the time and money to take care of the kids during the week. My mom works, she needs to take a nap. So me and their sister have to take care of them. It forces us into a parent role. The kids dont even like me, they're always asking for my mom. 

Just another reminder that my mom doesn't love me and she's actively replacing me with any other kid that comes her way

I can't wait for it to all end

Dude I swear so god Zohran Mamdani is going to be assassinated and I'm so scared, I hope he doesn't because he's been my first hope in politics for a WHILE, and that hard on WHILE, but seriously. Everytime something even remotely good happens in politics it ends because someone gets assassinated.

Also J didnt mention this but I got in a fight with the people I live with, 
          
          1v2
          
          I was the 1
          
          So fucking unfair
          All because that slyt refused to lock the door on her way out my fuckin house

Holy shit, I'm late, but happy SEVEN YEARS y'all---
          
          I've had this account for seven years, been venting my shit for six years, it's been one hell of a ride.
          
          Ya'know it's getting to that winter so is on the so depression is on the rise and I'mma be in here more often
          
          Nah but seriously, thank you to this fuck ass app for giving me some of the worst times of my life but also the most memorable. I'll always have fond memories from here and while the fics may be ass, the community board is top tier and I will always be thankful for having a place to say my peace. 
          
          it's going to be crazy the day I come on here with something so goo it out weights the shit I've said on here- 
          
          anyways <3 :>

I want to live in nyc so bad. 
          You know the videos of just random ass shit that goes on there? Yeah, I want that
          I can handle the noise, I can't sleep with silence
          Please let me live in nyc