LivingHorrorMovie

Can yall believe it? The letter I've been waiting for is going to be in my hands today. I'm going to read it, then I'm going to off myself. I'm kinda scared, but I kinda don't care.b

The guy is like 24. Shoukd I be chill with that ir us this grooming situation number 6-

Getting worse with some random guy on twt ehhhh

I now have 2 fears that I'm aware of

I don't know how to explain that planning my life and executing my life are two different things and I'm miserable doing one of them.

Happy Shinjiaru day!
          
          I'm not friends with anyone from that time anymore, but I keep up the tradition.
          
          Have a good day :]

I don't know how to explain this, so I'm going to try my best to put it into words but it might sound like a whole lot of nothing.
          
          When I was a kid, I used to wonder if the way people see is the same way I see. Not like the "Is my red your  red" thing, more like:
          Is everyone else also just observing but not really seeing?
          My eyes feel like a camera lens or like a tv screen and I've been watching the film back on it.
          Like I'm not actually experiencing my life, it's all just one big show I've been watching and interacting with every once in a while.
          
          Sometimes, I'll be listening to a podcast, watching a streamer, a movie, or a show andill get really invested and really into it.
          Especially with podcasts.
          And I'll go to want to say something and I will get disgruntled because no one would be able to respond. That's how far into my "life being a show" delusion is.
          
          Just a really long dissociative episode I can't get out of.

Holy shit I was reading a fic and I sat there trying to read the word "arrival" for a good 30 seconds and when I finally got it, I was like wtf why was thqt so hard to read for a minute

I hope non of the friends I make find this account bro.
          I literally talk about how horny i am all the time.

As much as I would love to have a best friend, I'm not allowed to. I've taken that privilege away from myself because claiming that someone is a best friend, that implies they are your favorite person. I can't have a fp, it's always ended up bad.