Victor S.

Uh okay so, hi 
          
          Came here for your mario fic stayed for your mental health, if you need to talk hmu :3 /gen

JAHAHAB HI LOSER I FUCKIN HATE YOU, YOU PEACE OF SHIT, YIU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I WANT YOU DEAD FR AHHAH GO SIT ON A WARM TOILET SEAT OR SOMETHING IDFK BUT I'M GONNA GO ASK MUM FOR A POCKET KNIFE though she'll probably say no, but I want one anyways cause I'm quirky and depressed ‍♂️ https://c.tenor.com/XzcRG2Vjww0AAAAM/ranboo-dream-smp.gif
          
          Hahaha
          
          
          R a n b o o

 Im so angry because I have all this pent up anger and sadness, confusion and it's all built up and it's finally flooding and I hate it. It's making my skin crawl and I feel so uncomfortable.
          
           No matter how many times I punch, hit, slap, claw at myself, pull my hair, try to breathe, it doesn't go away and I'm itching all over just to do something I'll regret.
          
           I can't distract myself, and I honestly don't know if I want to anymore because I haven't been able to show this side in a while.
          
           I keep thinking how I could've killed myself at anytime considering how fragile us humans are, how it could be over in just the flip of a coin. But then there's those dumbass people who I love so fucking much that are keeping me here on this dumbass earth, I can't believe I haven't just offed myself yet. I'm so useless, literally, I've done nothing for this world.

My lips bleeding like an oyster on a seattle washington state plane
          
          Idk most random thing i can think of but it won't stop bleeding 
          
          Why does blood taste so nasty-

Oh uh
          Happy 2021 or some shit

My back hurts like a bitch- it's knotted or some shit agH o u c h
          W o w z e r s
          It's hurts to move
          A h
          Even turning my head triggers the hurtith
          Moving my arm as well
          LAYING HURTS- QGHFBDBD BITCH I JUST WANNA FUNCTION PROPERLY THE FUCK
          bad ARM
          BAD
          BABBYYY savE meee 

WHY IS EVERYONE I KNOW SO FUCKING TALL OR SHORT
          NO
          IN
          BETWEEN
          AND THEN I GET MADE FUN OF FOR MY HEIGHT BY SHORT BITCHES AND TALL BITCHES? (basically my everyday life with fam)
          LIKE WTF??? I'M AVERAGE- i think.
          Is 5'1 and a half average?- wait shit i gotta check this

Nothing like crying on Christmas morning because I wanna hold my boyfriend who lives 19 hours away so I'm crying into my stuffed giraffe while listening to Depressing music so I can relax because it's 1 Am and I'm still not asleep-

I made a promise.
          A promise I know I can't keep.
          Only one specific person knows this promise and I don't know if he'll remember.
          I wasn't lying when I said I hate breaking promises but this one promise so painful, I was quite literally thinking about breaking it on Christmas day.
          But that wasn't the initial plan. The initial plan was ten years from now. Exactly, ten years from now. I would cancel everything going on in my life, and after that, my self.
          But it's so selfish to cancel it all because it'll affect others.
          I put them in front of me because they're happiness is more important than my heart beat alone.
          I put him in front of me because he's what's keeping me alive.
          I want to.. so badly... Break this one, single, promise.
          This promise I don't even care about, all I care about is him.
          Him
          Him and him alone.

I am following you now