Loki_Dead_Inside_RIP

Hello, my darlings! It's been a few months now since I came back on here. I've been doing some writing over on Tumblr (the-devils-angel is the username, if you want to check my two works out). Surgery on my ankle went well, but I'm still recovering from it. I also had two more surgeries... yay. I'm gonna try to continue some stories on here I left, but I can't make any promises.
          
          I love you all so much and Merry Christmas <333

Well, I caught the "fanfic writer tragedy disease"... I have wound up with 5 incurable genetic diseases/syndromes... dear god, save me.
          
          I have more mental illness diagnosed, more pills, I got sent to a mental hospital after an overdose, completely dismembered my ankle until it became a soup, and have surgery in just over 2 weeks
          
          Also, I haven't written in like a year
          
          I'm so totally fucked. Also, I'm probably not gonna graduate lmao

Oh, by the way, my TikTok for Wattpad (and trailers which I’m not doing good at keeping up with right now) is https://www.tiktok.com/@loki_dead_inside_rip?_t=8WcQ9m1ECsA&_r=1
          
          I love you guys so, so much!♡

I was like starting to re-find my grove with writing, about to dedicate myself to ‘I Hear You’...
          
          Now I’m sick...
          
          I seriously get a cold right as I’m kinda starting to find my footing again. Now I’m all congested, and my head isn’t working.
          
          I hate how many times this seems to happen
          T-T
          
          
          Anyway, hopefully soon, I’ll get the next chapter out. I love you all, and thank you for being so patient with me!♡

For the first time in like three months I uploaded a chapter to ‘I Hear You’ *sweat smile emoji*
          
          I love you all so much. Thank you for being so understanding, considerate, and patient❤️

Hey, guys…
          
          So, I live in America. If you haven’t heard, a law was just recently overturned that gets rid of women’s rights to their own damn body. It’s been really hard for me, a scary thing since I’ve been sexually abused, and it could’ve gotten to the point of a pregnancy.
          
          I also take birth control for periods. They’re awful and almost crippling. I bleed for weeks and am curled up in a ball every time… If birth control becomes illegal, I will be in agonizing pain without it.
          
          It’s a really hard thing to think about, but that’s all I seem to be able to do.
          
          Another thing is I’m dealing with issues with cramping (started a NEW birth control recently), and that’s been hard on my body. My insomnia has gotten worse and my body is kinda breaking down (happy birthday to me…)
          
          One thing that will hopefully get my mind off of everything is I’m going to go on vacation in a few days.
          
          I obviously won’t be posting and will barely be writing (I’ve kinda started to slowly make my motivation go back up, so I’ve been working on it)
          
          I love you all and thank you SO much for being as patient as you have been with me❤️❤️❤️

Are you aware that the ‘not ideal’ body type nowadays was the ideal body and praised long ago?
          
          In Ancient Greece (500 - 300 B.C.) the ideal body was plump and full bodied.
          
          Italian Renaissance (1400 - 1700) their ideal body was ample breasts, rounded stomach, and full hips.
          
          
          If someone thinks that your body is not lovely, they’re dead wrong.
          
          Aphrodite — Greek GODDESS of love, sex, and beauty — was seen as the epitome of Greek beauty. She’s depicted with large breasts, wide hips, fleshy (thick) thighs, and a plump midsection. The women of Ancient Greece looked up to her and attempted to model their own bodies after her.
          
          Hera — Greek GODDESS of marriage and women — has a large X-shaped scar on her stomach.
          
          Athena — (ANOTHER) Greek GODDESS of wisdom and warfare — is depicted as a tall and slender woman.
          
          
          Plump, skinny, curvy, short, tall, average height, scars, acne, any ethnicity, short hair, long hair, big nose, small nose, thin lips, big lips, small eyes, big eyes, whatever eye color, unruly brows, perfectly shaped brows, and each face shape is beautiful. YOU are beautiful. You are worthy of love. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
          
          
          Knowing that I have the body type of a goddess makes me so happy and like myself a bit more. I hope it helps other people too♡♡♡
          
          My best friend has said that they love my body, that there’s just more to love and cuddle. And it’s so true.
          
          
          In the end, beauty and the ‘ideal woman’s body’ is a human construct, and completely in the eye of the beholder.
          
          But if someone won’t accept you for who you are, they sure as hell don’t deserve you.

✨ boop ✨ you have been booped. Spread this on 20 other accounts and let the chaos spread

Question: Should I make a TikTok purely for my account here? Like put trailers and stuff for my books on it?
          
          (I’d make a new one because some of my friends and family members follow my personal one… That would be weird and awkward…)
          
          Just a thought since I saw someone else do that!
          
          Love you all SOOOOOO much!

Another quick thing:
          
          Someone very close to me just had a big surgery, so I’m going to help take care of them for the next few weeks. After that, I go on vacation.
          
          I’m really sorry about all this!
          
          I love you all sooooo much❤️