mjolnir in his pants

AND NOW I WANT EVERYONE TO PAY ATTENTION TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!! WEEEHOOO

IM ALIVE!! After a much needed break and pretty much not existing on here because I started reading other books- IM BACK 
          
          Im over the whole mopey act and please ignore all the dark shit I posted- I am now back
          
          
          -Elara 

Gurl the new photos of Tom make him look SO MUSTY
          
          -oh and Im not dead 

TW: SA
          
          Dear "Uncle"
          
          How are you? I wonder how our garden is doing. Though it has been 6 years I still hope the tomatoes I planted are still alive. I haven't seen our luscious plants in a while. But you have no idea how much I wish to see them. But I can't do that. Because I know I'll see nothing. All of our hard work gone, and I cannot do that. Because in my mind, the pumpkin seeds we planted are eaten by animals that pass by.
          
          I put this illusion in my head because if the strawberries aren't as sweet as you said then your hand going up my skirt was for nothing. Your hand underneath my shirt, underneath my panties. All of it would've been for nothing

Im so fucking pissed, I wrote somethings not knowing there was a word limit so know I have to rewrite it... ugh

Um BIG TW on my last post- I completely forgot to put a warning. I was blinded by anger

Sometimes ppl need to understand that even if you know everyone -and even have ppl who are close to you - be affected by a mass crime, IT STILL DOESN'T MEAN YOU WERE THERE!! Yes you can feel the pain the see the anger, but you will NEVER and I mean NEVER have nightmares like we do. 
          
          U don't wake up at night screaming in fear. You don't feel embarrassed because you wet urself when a GUN was to ur head. You don't look back at memories like I do wondering where that person went wrong. 
          
          Don't try to put urself in the middle of it all because you dont even feel an OUNCE of fear I dont

Happy birthday to my annoying ass sister;
          
          Oh my fucking God I swear each year you want me to punt kick you more and more. But I love you and you put up with my shit. Im also sorry on how everyone treats you as the youngest. And just know that even if you are growing up too fast you're my favorite 8-year old rat. 
          
          Now she may never see this so here it is: I love you M. and I hope that my efforts of you not growing up with the same trauma as me pay off. I wish that you do what makes you happy in life and understand how hard it is for me to raise you and still have the energy to play. I try as hard as I can... I really do 
          
          <3 Ate Ellie 

Okay so I need you guys to help me find a story I dont know the name of;
          
          So basically Chris E. and Seb are mob-bosses and have this bar as a front in new york. One day Seb meets this girl in a store and stops her from getting robbed. Afterwards the character and Seb fall in love and one scene in the book is when Seb is beating the shit out of a guy the character walks in. But instead of running away she takes Seb's hand and gives him a shower
          
          I cannot ask what the name of the book is because the person who described it to me, well me and her are not on speaking terms *Kate*, please help if you can

I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD I HATE PEOPLE SOMETIMES
          
          So I just saw a TikTok about how this person now hates Tom Hiddleston for being in the Loki show.
          
          They were saying "oh why would he be in this shitty show, I can't believe he's still doing S2."
          
          And all of the comments were like "Ikr his show sucks I can't believe he's doing this to his own character - he's a producer blah blah blah"
          
          LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?!? HE PUT HIS SOUL INTO THIS AND WHAT CAN BE DO HE'S UNDER A FUCKING CONTRACT 
          
          AND HES AN EXECUTIVE PRODUCER WHICH MEANS ONLY LIKE 5% OF HIS IDEAS GET THE GREEN LIGHT OMFG
          
          BLAME THE WRITERS NOT TOM