Friends and loyal followers.
I’m writing to let you know I am taking a break from writing my fanfics. I’m really sorry, I know many people enjoy them but I’ve lost complete creative motivation for them. I guess part of that lays with the fact I don’t love what marvel has become, and despite still loving my comfort characters, suddenly the franchise feels empty as many of them are dying or have had their characters ruined.
I love writing, but with Sweetheart it began to stress me out. The constant hating myself when one chapter didn’t do as good as the others, the fact my other stories never got the same level of recognition. I compared myself with myself daily as well as other writers.
I want to keep writing, I want to publish chapters for a novel I’ve been writing called Glass, but I have no idea if I will finish that either. Glass is emotional, and raw, and god awfully painful to write. But right now it’s what I feel best doing. I think there is something soothing in knowing that it’s harder to get reads on non-fanfics. Like maybe that way I won’t be so hard on myself. I always claimed I published stories for me and no one else, and that’s how it started off but that quickly changed and I hated when uploading felt like a chore. Now, Glass really is for me. If anyone chooses to read I welcome them, but this truly is just mine.
I will be keeping all of my fanfics up, and maybe one day I will return to them. Right now, I’m not feeling them. And I’m really sorry.
Peace and love,
-Lonah Lennox
P.s: I will also be publishing this update in my unfinished fics.