London_streetlights
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TW: MENTION OF SH AND ED
so ig I just needed to vent idk what this is gonna do but it's better than doing worse things. my life feels like it's falling apart. I lost my gf a few months ago and ever since then all she has been doing is being mean and just doing tiny things to piss me off like going on other friends phones to flip me off. one by one she has picked one of the few friends i have and has told them stuff ab me and like totally turning them against me. I have only one more friend and I don't want to seem clingy but she's all I have rn. ontop of that my parents are getting a fucking divorce and that makes me seem like my problems aren't worth anything and that just makes me more confused. the only thing they talk to me ab is making sure I eat 2,300 calories a day which makes me fucking suck and they don't know I throw it all up and that makes me feel more guilty and also when they think I might be sh-ing again bc if the school finds out again that just makes them look worse. I also have so many sports like basketball and two soccer teams and track that I all have with my ex who is a fucking bitch and tries to make fun of me when she seriously turned emo (like actually, changed to emo style clothes, dyed hair black, pierced nose, got black banded braces, all of the above) and even though I wanted to end things in a good way and I may have been a bitch and didn't seem sad enough after we broke up bc I get numb when I'm going through that much pain. even when we were dating I was sh-ing all the time and never eating and ik ab my parents too, I was falling apart without her gone, now I'm officially apart. the funny thing is I don't even want her back I want her to leave me tf alone, yk? she's tried to flirt with so many girls and they've all rejected her bc of the way she's treating me but they won't stick up for me they just see my mistake and don't do the same. I just want her to be gone, no I want ME to be gone. that's it.
