A woman full of regrets after so much time has passed and she hasnt become all that she wanted to be or given her children all she wanted to give. SHe has lived a life that she doesnt recognise and hasnt been the best for all. Not the mum, nor the wife that she dreamt she would be and feels disrespected and unappreciated by all that are important in her life other than her blessed mum who has lost all ability to have a life other than a shell of a woman with such a kind heart that hurts deep but can tell none. Merely existing for her husband to have her in his life as she is all that he has. A woman so perfectly calm and beautiful inside that her daughter craved to be the woman she was but is scared that she will follow her footsteps, losing all that she is. She has taken half of her mother and half of her hard, independant, bitter father who loves inside but shows little and has to be right, always. A hard working, Loving but not always showing, proud, independant women who wants desperatly to be looked after as well as look after others. Her father sowing never an apology nor acknowledgment for anyones hard work. A proud man that has made an equally proud daughter with the heart of gold that her mother blessed her with but the stubborness and need to be right that her father has given her. A match that has caused confusion in her own life and her families. She is admired yet hated and feels little from anyone and although her world is so crowded and busy, she is so alone. She has tried, tried her hardest that is for sure. All that she does, she does for others but those others never ever see it that way. She feels a failure and a  disappoinment and so do her children and husband. A life that has been full of lies, heart aches and failures. Happy memories, tarnished with bad. Photos creating smiles and sadness. A woman that wishes she could try her life out all over again for the second time so that next time she gets everythign perfectly right.